Sophisticated Simplicity

武曲七杀~

2011-09-11T13:49:00.002+08:00

Well, a few weeks ago, my girlfriend bought me a package to see a fortune-teller using 紫微斗數...

Let's see what he said of my character:

1) Impatient

2) Tactless - Say my mouth carry two 关刀.. -_-""" Ish 一针见血 type.. ~_~

3) Good to friends

4) 霸道 and stubborn~

5) Loves enjoyment

6) Places high value in career and money

How true is that?

命宫 - 武曲七杀

Means born under a General Star~

Not saying much anymore.. xp

Of Nothing-ness...

2011-09-11T13:42:00.002+08:00

Woots... Long time never post.. Years I think.. LOL..

Well.. Just posting out of boredom while waiting for my gf to come.. ~_~

Life's been bad for the past few years.. Sigh~

Hope it will improve soon...

Found-ed

2009-06-03T09:58:00.002+08:00

Finally landed a job and starting work next Mon...

Hmmm.. This new job is actually not what I was looking for.. It's like they requested for my resume on some jobs website and then called me for interview..

During the first interview, they said, "So, you applied for this job...."

I was like -__-"""

I didn't really apply for the job.. But heck lah..

Went through the interviews and finally being offered a supervisory job.. Those do nothing one and ask ka kia to work only.. Hahaha...

Well... Don't know why in life, when you want something, you don't get it.. But when you don't want that thing, it keeps throwing itself at you...

So be it then...

Starting work after a month's rest... Feeling slack... Haha...

Frustrations of Job Search (Perceptions)

2009-05-06T15:20:00.002+08:00

Yea.. Due to bad economy situations, I'm shaking my leg at home now while searching for a new job...

Feeling like a hamburger now due to the following (own perception):

"We just wanted a diploma holder but you are holding a degree. Qualifications does not match..."

"Oh. we are not looking for distance learning degrees. We only want local graduates..."

From my job search, I realised that one particular recruitment agency only look for local grads and does not bother to reply to me at all even though I've sent in a million resumes... Thus I've come to the perception that most recruitment agencies do not bother themselves with people like me and focuses only on local grads..

It's not a wonder too since it's easier for them to help local grads get jobs and they can gain more commissions this way.. Therefore, why would anyone (recruitment agencies) wanna help me look for job? Damn realistic...

For now, giving up on recruitment agencies...

Yea yea... I am complaining now... Too bad I wasn't hardworking in the past...

Therefore, in this country, I've developed the perception that it does not matter how good and capable you are (unless you are in top management like CEO, CFO etc..), it's the certificates you hold..

People like me are never given a real chance at a good company or a good position...

No matter where I was, I've always out-performed fellow colleagues and bosses recognize that and I've been greatly valued.. It's not from my own mouth, but it's derived from feedbacks that I got...

However, it's just damn difficult for me to even get a job as an essential personnel... Just because of my lousy educational background...

It's damn de-motivating... I should just get a lousy job and rot my life away and pass my knowledge to my future generation (if any) and hope they have better prospects than me..

Guess that the knowledge and experience I've gained through the years of constantly pursuing knowledge will go down the drain and everything will be in vain...

Or is heaven forcing me to start a business??? Haha....

*Yawnz...

End of...

2008-12-26T17:14:00.001+08:00

End of 2008... Soon...

Woah.. Time seems to fly for me this year...

Before things comes to an end, let me re-cap a bit...

1) Changed job in late Feb

Yea.. Changed to something that I thought I desired...

Hmm.. Been on this job for almost 10 months already... One of the longest job that I've ever held.. -__-""""

Well, made some fast and close friends in the new company and met up often too for dinners and special occasions like birthdays...

Not bad...

2) Made some enemies in the workplace...

Yea.. The freaking Ugly, Fat and Old (UFO) woman who looks like Jabba the Hut from Starwars... She's good at pissing off everyone who works with her... I wonder how she's surviving as a human.. Haha..

Basically, I still hate local fresh grads.. Those who think they know it all and is not humble.. Yea.. In came a new one and within a few weeks, managed to pissed a lot of people off, including me... Dunno how long she's able to survive here..

3) Created Characters in the company

(Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe... )

The Lion - The one who roars in laughter and yet, no one dares to say anything.. Woman of power...

The Witch - Someone who's laughter so sharp and loud.. And basically is thin like a witch and is extremely irritating till I feel like buring her on a stake

The Wardrobe - Full of different dresses.. Critisized her a few times and kena whacked by her door.. Cham-ness...

The Hello Kitty - The wannabe who's totally the opposite of Hello Kitty.. When has anyone seen Hello Kitty laughed loudly? Does Hello Kitty even have a mouth??? Helloooooooooooooo.........

The Courtesy Lion - The wannabe who's not very courteous, uses a lot of vulgar language, and smokes more and more each day, courtesy of *ahem... Wahahaha....

4) Established as an intelligent LAB in the company...

LAB = Lao Ah Beng... -__-""" Yea.. All thanks to someone who spread my fame...

As for intelligent, my admin was going through the CV one day and read mine... Then she skyped me and said, "Now I know you are not just an Ah Beng, but an intelligent Ah Beng.." -__-"""

5) Finally... Attached...

Yea.. Gotten myself a partner after so many years...

Was choosing between 2... Since this one is considered to be a nice gal and we have common interests and similar family background, so why not give it a try?

Been together since July 12... 1207... Not bad number for 4D permutations.. Wahahaha...

And please don't ask me when I'm getting married... Haha..

6) Found "The One" phone for me..

Yea.. The iPhone... Though it has many restrictions and constraints, I love it a lot... It's just damn freaking nice loh... Wahahaha...

Hmmm.. I think that's just about it... Nothing much already I guess...

Well, New Year resolutions will be next...

Coming soon... Stay tune...

No Specific Topic

2008-11-18T17:06:00.000+08:00

Ok.. It's a lame title.. But what's new? Hahaha...

Been busy over last weekend and till yesterday trying to meet deadlines....

Now.. It's waiting time before I get busy again..

Yea yea.. Sounds like NS life.. Haha...

Last night had a nightmare... Dreamt that I was ignoring my ex-gf and she went to hold another guy's hand.. And I shouted.. Think it was out of frustration... Haha..

But the heart-wrenching thing is, after a few minutes, a plastic chair dropped on my camera which was affixed on the tripod and it toppled over...

*Ouch...

Tested it and think it's still workable.. Except for the Image Stabiliser and the focusing that's having a little problem..

Sadness...

Had lunch with Cheryl today with intern... Yea.. The gal who doesn't know how to spell banana in the past and spelt as bananananananananana... Don't even know how many "na-s"

Haha...

Yea.. Today she eat a papayayayayayaya after lunch... Oops.. It's papaya... Haha.. And talking with her mouth full with papaya stuck in her braces and not concentrating till the papaya dropped on the table..

She let out a high-pitched soft whining... (Try to imagine that yourself ok?)

The intern and I laughed at the "sound effect".. Haha..

Ok ok.. She's entertaining...

Updates...

2008-11-15T18:29:00.002+08:00

Yea yea... Been real busy to do any updates...

Last week was like mad... Met up 2 groups of ex-colleagues.. One from my last job and one from my current company...

Really enjoyed both the sessions on Fri and Saturday night.. Except for the stupid movie.. Also slept... Haha..

Thursday night.. After my RT session, got a missed call from a friend.. Initially wanted to have diiner with me, but my RT ended at 8pm and she already got her colleague to pack for her..

Ended up having some coffee with her.. Don't know where I got the motivation from after my RT.. Rushed home bath, ate dinner, dressed up and rushed to meet her...

Office... Had two new colleagues joining in.. One is a China gal, the other is Singaporean...

The China gal is quite nice...

But.. The Singaporean gal is crapz... The typical local fresh grad I love to hate..

And her laughter is super irritating.. Like a witch's laugh.. Loud and sharp...

Yea.. And she pissed me off also.. Not just me, but some colleagues in another department...

Had lunch in a group yesterday.. They were going to a workshop and was talking about not dressing skimply..

The witch then said that's why she wore a jacket.. I was like.. -__-"""

She got absolutely nothing to see loh.. So what's there to hide??? So flat that planes can land and take off easily loh...

Then she started on complaining the hawkers are so fierce etc and she's a customer and demands to be treated better...

Please.. With her attitude, if I'm hawker, I will not serve her as well loh... She'll be lucky if I sell her anything at all...

Yea.. Don't have good impression of her at all...

And yea.. Told her directly she should practise tact... Then we never talked to each other anymore.. Wahahaha...

Yesterday had frog porridge for dinner... While on the way back, I was told that I have some Leo in me... Means I'm a mix of Leo and Virgo...

-__-"""

Ok.. I'm a mutant...

Finally... After being chased...

2008-10-24T15:01:00.000+08:00

Finally, a day of slackness...

Yea yea.. Putting off blogging..

Other than being super busy at work, life's pretty boring for me actually..

Nothing much, nothing new... *Yawnz...

Yea yea.. Making all the noises at my workplace keyboard now cause finally free and now acting like busy doing work..

New pet phrase for these past few months: "Heck lah!~!" Hahha.. New template to add on to my existing ones...

Yea.. At my workplace, there's like a million templates to refer to and utilise..

And don't know when my colleague and I started to notice that we have our "templates" when we talk..

The words we use, actions, etc etc..

Maybe it's those "templates" in the lives of people that makes predicting and the study of psychology possible? Even though it's not 100% accurate...

Recently the stupid destruction of the JTC buildings near my place really causing me problem.. Leg itch like mad.. Now, my legs are rich.. Filled with "Ngor Jiam, Jik Ka".. (5 cents and 10 cents)... Wahaha...

And the stupid EC construction work going on.. Shit man.. My skin is just sensitive to dust.. Freako.. And the mosquitos..

A few months ago, I've gained a few kilos of weight... But I realised that I lost energy.. Didn't have energy to do things nor to crap and talk..

These past two weeks, I managed to reduce back to my original weight and realised that I have more energy compare to the time that I gained weight..

So, I've decided.. I'll stay at this weight. Heck care ar!~! Wahahaha...

Sianz.. going to RT soon.. Forced to exercise soon.. And immediately after that, reservist for around 2 weeks plus.. Out to sea again...

Stupid people say we go out to sea to catch Sotongs and then bang the Sotongs... How I wish got so good life loh.. Though I might feel like catching Sotongs, I will rather BBQ and eat them then to bang them... That's pure.. Ummm.. SM???

Oh yar.. iPhone.. The best mobile I ever had.. OS is stable, response fast.. Though some functions are limited, but it's stable and good...

Hmm.. How good it will be if relationships are like the iPhone..

Stability.. Powerful OS (foundation)... And can add on other utilities and games and other functions to add fun to life.. Then life in a relationship will not be so boring...

Maybe I should just date my iPhone.. Wahaha..

Ok ok.. I'm a bit geeky... Heck lah... Wahahaha...

Ok ok.. Backz to doing nothing..

Another time..

New Toy

2008-10-19T14:02:00.001+08:00

After months and months of non-blogging, I finally found a reason strong enough to motivate me to log in and type something.. Haha.. And that is... My new toy..

Apple IPhone 3G

Yea..

Bought yesterday at $348 and still fiddling around with it.. haha

Will review it once I fully explore the functionalities.. Keke..

Changes

2008-07-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

Didn't have time to post for a while.. Was actually quite busy with some things..

Yea.. And there's changes to my life too.. After many many years.. It's complicated.. Haha..

Well, the time will come when I will reveal more ba...

Stupid UFO is still pissing me off at home..

That's the only change that didn't take place at all in my life..

%$^^&*((^&$%^$#%$%%^%

*Yawnz...

Monday - The Colour of Royalty

2008-07-14T10:40:00.002+08:00

Well, it's another Monday where I do not have much things to do except to blog in office.. Haha..

Last week was an emotional roller coaster for me I guess..

Wednesday (9th July)

Went for my graduation ceremony. Slept through most part of it.. Keke.. Was quite a busy day..

Went to collect my graduation gown in the morning.. Then went to collect my graduation tickets..

Slept a bit before going to the graduation...

Took some pics here and there.. There's two with a cig in my mouth while I'm in my graduation gown.. Kekeke..

Friday (11th July)

Was my "boss" last day.. Rachel.. Yar.. Haha.. Went for dinner at Preve, at Keppel Island there.. After Vivo City..

We ate at the bakery and I had the Preve burger, where the beef is truly fantastic.. Wagyu Beef.. Expect nothing less.. Kekeke..

We took quite a bit of pictures there as well.. The scenary is quite fanatastic..

After that, we went to St James.. Club hop a little..

Gosh.. It's been years since I last club and the booming music gave me a headache on Sat's morning..

I don't think I'll ever go club in a while.. Haha.. Prefer to sit down and drink.. I old man liaoz..

Saturday (12th July)

Slept till 11am plus.. Ate brunch and just slack around.. Wanted to charge my PDA but realised that I left it in office on Friday..

So, made a trip down to office at around 2 plus to 3..

Shortly after, the UFO (Ugly Fat Old woman) came in.. She was surprised that I was in office..

I decided to stay a while to see what was she doing back on Saturday..

Well, she made her bread to eat, on pc, talked on phone and then slept for an hour plus on the couch..

Basically, she came back to enjoy the aircon.. -__-"""

Did not work for a few hours.. Freak that UFO..

She wants me to help her with her work, but seeing her like that, I refused.. Wahahaha..

Well, had dinner with a colleague at Tao's restaurant.. Totally enjoyed it but we walked home again.. -__-"""

Talked for a few hours before we went our way home..

Sunday (13th July)

Went marketing and did a bit of cooking for dinner.. Made my "best on earth" Yong Tau Foo and Steamed Martell Prawn.. Wahahaha..

For Yong Tau Foo, I forgot one ingredient.. Wasted.. *Haiz..

My Steamed Martell Prawns were great!~! Kekeke..

Ok ok.. Then slack around till 12+ before turning in for the night..

So tired now..

*Yawnz...

Monday Sianzelogy...

2008-07-07T16:58:00.000+08:00

Monday blue, Monday sianz, Monday blue and sianz.. Wahahaha..

Nothing much to do today.. Slacking my life and time away..

Hmmm... Actually there's something interesting that I would like to blog about..

Been hearing gals say that they wanna concentrate on career, studies etc and has no interest to be in a relationship..

Ok, so, what's the deal here?

Let's just use my mindset and ideology as a base.

I don't see any problem in that. At least I know that I'm the understanding type and is able to play support roles to the one I love.. So, it's not really an issue to me..

Of course, many a times, the real reason for the gals will be that,"I don't like you. So, I won't spend time with you. Get lost and don't waste my time.."

Ok ok.. I'm exaggerating on the words.. Hahaha..

However, there are some who really meant that and I guess it takes a very understanding and patient guy to work things out..

At least I know I am able to do it..

Well, so the issue now is to differentiate what is the real meaning behind those words then.. Of which, I have no answer and is unable to answer it myself currently.. Keke..

I just kind of like feel that majority of the time, they are just not interested in the guy..

However, I've really met some who really took it seriously as a consideration for the guy..

Well, I guess guys have to be more matured and less MCP... When it comes to work, just play supporting role and trust that the gal is not up to anything funny..

Trust.. Yea.. Another complicated area...

From my viewpoint, I guess sometimes, girls are too sensitive and too suspicious.. They tend to think too much and question the guys too much..

I'm not saying it's a bad thing, but there should be a limit, a balance to things.. Sometimes, it just frustrates the guy so much that he may really seek out solace from other girls..

However, I have seen and known married men who just f*** around and even goes to the famous Red Light District for paid sex while leaving their wife and children at home..

Well, for this matter, what was my previous practise with my ex-gf was that I stopped being so nice to other gals.. Wherever I go and do, I will tell her..

It's all about accountability I guess.

Last time, for her, I only went to pubs for drinking and chatting session with my friends like once every 4 to 6 months.. Is that still consider bad?

I even offered to bring her along.. Too bad she doesn't like the smoke smell...

Trust.. Is when she tells me she's meeting up another guy alone and tells me where they are going and doing and I'm totally fine with it..

But this is arguable.. Since she complained that I'm bo chap.. Hahaha.. I guess I have to learn something from here..

The definition of trust always differs according to gender I guess..

Gosh.. A relationship is really complicated..

Talk about having a simple and happy relationship.. It's not easy at all loh..

Nothing's easy in this world I guess..

That's why, Sophisticated Simplicity..

Or maybe it's just because I think too much.. Wahahaha...

Can't Get Her out of my Head...

2008-07-07T00:29:00.000+08:00

Heaven Knows

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up,
Till I close my eyes.
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know.

And though she's so far away,
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on

So tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Chorus:

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope & pray
'Coz heaven knows.

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her,
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine

But tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

(Repeat Chorus except last line)

Bridge:

'Coz heaven knows
Why I live in despair
'Coz wide awake or dreamin',
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave,
I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so?

(Repeat Chorus)

Heaven knows... heaven knows.

Saturday Randomization

2008-07-06T12:12:00.000+08:00

Went back to office on Sat afternoon to do some work..

A colleague was there and I shall call her PL... Haha...

Well, it's nice that there's no other people in the office.. Kinda like this kind of working environment.. No bosses, freedom of speech and action.. Haha..

After work, went to Marina with PL to shop around for some jeans and casual clothes.. Spent around $200 to $300.. -__-"""

Then, went to have dinner at Suntec Foodcourt.. Tried the Bak Kut Teh at the corner sold by China people..

Don't really like it and it's very different from Singapore's version.. 2 person's meal for $15.. I might as well go to the kopitiam behind Bugis MRT for the Bak Kut Teh... It's one of the best around loh...

After that, shopped at Carrefour for some rations.. Went back to office to put the stuff after that... Met another colleague, which I shall call KL.. Haha..

Yea.. Then we talked to KL for a whole hour.. KL was requesting me and Rachel to be better to Flo, the big fat old arse.. To pamper and treat Flo like a child... Cause Flo told her many times how stressed she was and couldn't approach us and she feels like I'm taking sides with Rachel..

-__-"""

I said an organization doesn't need a fat golden eagle at operational level... And told them a bit of my past and how I've improved...

Haha.. Ok.. Never mind.. After that, went home, put my things and met Ah Hau.. Went down to Timbre again.. -__-"""

While on taxi, I started complaining about the big fat arse and there was this following scenario where I found very funny:

Hau: Aiyah. 忍一下吧...

Me: 谁会忍一个又老,又肥,又丑的女人???

Then the cab uncle turned back and laugh... Wahaha... That was the ultimate sentence I think.. Too power till the quiet cab uncle also buay tahan.. Haha..

Ok.. I'm mean.. :p

Well, reached Timbre and started to drink and chat.. Think both of us drank too fast last night.. I also learnt that one gets easily high if the body is tired..

In one of our conversation, Ah Hau raised the question why I was not attached for the past 6 years.. Cause according to him, he said my standards and criterias are there... Can't help wondering why I have no girlfriend..

Wahaahaha.. I replied.. "Dunno leh.. Maybe my criteria high ba.."

So after drinking and all, we went back.. And I slept till like 11am...

The Delicate Relationships... Mixed Emotions and Confusion

2008-06-29T09:56:00.000+08:00

To you, whom I call brother..

Known each other for years, yet how could you not spare a thought for my feelings..

Though easy-going am I, yet, don't you know some territories are not meant to be crossed?

Yet, how could you enter into that territory without qualms and started to attack me with arrows that pierce my heart?

The confusion, hurt and anger, do you not know or do you not care?

Have I not tolerated your ways, your temper for years? Do you think that I'm just a monkey who cannot hurt nor able to fight back?

Do our brotherhood mean nothing before your eyes?

To others who step into my territory, I kill without mercy and torture them with the most perverse ways...

But the person had to be you...

Why do you have to cause a crack in the mirror with your words?

To her whom I call my beloved...

From the first day that I met you, I wanted to know you more..

Loving you more and more with each passing moment spent together...

Your character, your beauty has captivate my heart..

Yet.. I am unsure of the feelings that you ahve for me? Is it mutual? Or is it just friends..

Insecurities plague my heart.

I slowly lose confidence and slowly fall into the pits of confusion..

To the world out there..

Am I being loved at all?

Weekend Fun..

2008-06-22T22:43:00.000+08:00

Seems like the weekends past so fast...

Was out for dinner with ex-colleagues on Friday night.. Had Jap food and Hagen Daz ice-cream after that...

Well, as usual, chatted till quite late before going home.. Haha..

Sat night.. Dinner at Swenson and KTV session after that... Been a while since I've sang and sadly, I can't hit the high notes anymore..

Slept at around 4am and woke up at 10pm.. And slept through Sunday..

Haiz.. Work again tomorrow...

Hmm.. Everyone seems to be changing blogskins.. I feel like changing also.. Waahaha.. Anyone has any ideas for me???

Breaking Away..

2008-06-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

Well, today had a break after work..

Went to watch the movie, "Kungfu Panda".. It was so totally crappy that I laughed for most parts of the show.. Haha..

Well, kind of relaxing after a day's work..

Choices.. Been quite a while since I visited this topic again.. Haha..

So now how? I may not be making any choices at all in the end..

Maybe I will continue to be alone for a few more years? Who knows..

Guess maybe it's the Virgo's perfectionist character acting up??? Or maybe I couldn't really find what I'm looking for?

I guess it's the latter..

Like they all say.. 被爱是最幸福的，爱人是最痛苦的...

得不到的爱，为什么还要那么执著呢？？？

Maybe I just can't find the love I want, the love I need?? So, it's not a matter of criteria fitting.. That's secondary..

Well.. Everything's still in question marks for now..

And I can be, and is that stubborn..

Looking Back.. Testimonials..

2008-06-15T13:44:00.000+08:00

I was just being bo liao and read through the testimonials I got from my primary school and secondary school..

Common things found written in my primary school testimonials: Brave, kind, cheerful, helpful, unselfish and smart..

Then some gals said I was nice, cute, handsome, friendly.. Waahaha... Sounds contradicting.. Cute = Ugly but adorable. Handsome = well.. Handsome.. Wahahaha... And one ended with.. "Stay cute!~!".. -__-"""

There was this comment where my friend said I was the hero of the class.. -__-""" I can't even remember what I did.. What hero??? But I guess it's the audacious things I did ba..

When was I kind? When was I unselfish and helpful??? I smart meh?? I didn't even study loh!~! Hahaha... Think my primary school life was interesting..

Oh yar.. There was this time when we had a primary school reunion a few years ago.. My class rep actually divulged to me that the teacher asked her to sit next to me because I'm good in my studies and can teach her.. I remembered that time and I was like -__-"" ... I need to sit and communicate with a girl???? Faintz.. Wahaha...

From Secondary school gal friends.. Don't know me well because I don't mix with gals.. Wahaaha... Yar.. that's very true.. Can't believe I was that shy right??? Hahaha..

Oh yar.. One comment was that someone admired me for my devotion in attaining my dreams.. Hmmm... Yea.. And the usual comments that I'm kind etc etc..

I read this ultimate one from Ah Hau and part of it goes like this.. "However, I don't really like the way u handle (project) things when cooperating with you. It feel like working with a d**ned joker. But it may be your happy-go-lucky way which makes you popular.."

Ummm.. But I am a Project Executive now!~! Wonder if my bosses feel the same way.. Wahahaha..

Ummm.. I popular in secondary school meh??? How come I don't know???? Maybe because I'm the joker??? Hahaha...

And it continues on with, "Observant is what amazed me most." Wahaha.. I think I agree with this.. Hahaha...

Ok ok.. But I have my LL and XL times..

Ok ok.. I'm getting egoistic already from all the testimonials.. Haha..

But really.. Looking back at things, I don't even know I was that popular, nor did I realize I'm the hero in my primary school..

I only know that I'm the power person in my University.. Think my name really spreaded that time in the school and among the school staff when I fought the school for my Law results from P1 to Distinction... Wahahaha..

And sometimes I wonder.. Why is a perfect guy like me still single??? Must be because of the pimples and holes on my face, my underweight body, my smoking and my clowning around and people don't know when I'm serious and when I'm not..

Wahahaha... Ok ok.. I'm egoistic.. :p

Of Food & Alcohol..

2008-06-15T11:38:00.000+08:00

Went to an ex-colleague place on Friday night for some gathering... Had vegetarian food and some games.. And endless complaints about work from others.. Haha.. Quite enjoyed the session except from the heat...

Saturday's events..

1) Jon msn-ed to go IT show in the morning. Agreed to it
2) Rach sms-ed me asking if I'm going to IT show. Cause she'll be around town to pierce a hole in her ear lobe.. Told her my plans and was ok..
3) Cheryl sms-ed me asking if I'm going to IT show.. Told her our plans
4) Arranged to meet at Boat Quay's Timbre..
5) Reached Boat Quay's Timbre and there was some event's going on..
6) Moved to SMU's Timbre.. We met up all there..
7) Queued for over 1 hour plus before we gave up and left for Clarke Quay..
8) Had some desserts at Clarke Quay first.. And woah.. The double chocolate mud cake is ultimately super loh..
9) Proceeded on to Kandi Bar for drinks and chat..
10) Terence joined us with his friend a while later..
11) Drank a few bottles of Heinekin and started to talk rubbish and went mad..

Shit! I think I went quite mad last night.. Can't exactly remember what I said and done.. Wahahaha.. But who cares???

Yap.. Had fun over Friday and Saturday.. And I'm still a litte blur-ish now..

Sat Night Fever...

2008-06-08T12:04:00.000+08:00

Saturday...

Finally had my steamboat at Ju Ju Hokkaido Hotpot... Had it with a friend and eat till very very full...

And I walked all the way from Selegie to my place... -__-""" Quite an accomplishment I would say..

Before I could get up to my home, my friend sms-ed me.. Asked me to go chill-out...

But before meeting him, I have to visit the toilet.. To release some food out.. If you get what I mean.. Wahahaa..

So.. We went to Timbre yet again.. This time round, both of us ordered a bottle of Martell.. $170+ for a bottle.. At least I think the price is ok..

And we drank 3/4 of a bottle within like, 2 hours plus??

Yea.. I have de-proved... Over the past few years, cut down significantly on alcohol already.. What's a bottle of Martell to me last time??? Now, couldn't even finish a bottle even when sharing with a friend.. Wahaha...

Well, Timbre's a real nice place to chill out.. The music, the crowd... It's just great for old man like me.. Haha..

No Ah Lians or Ah Bengs... Lots of chio gals to ogle at.. Wahaha... Yea.. A place of great music, alcohol and pretty gals.. What else more can I ask for???

But having a bad hangover now..

Mid Week... And Changes

2008-06-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

Wednesday... When will the weekends come??? Haha..

Hmmm... Recently, haven't been talking much with her...

Feels like both of us are drifting apart..

No more whinings from her, no more crapping.. No more arguing and complaints..

Drifting apart.. Doesn't feel right in my heart...

Does it mean I'm no longer wanted?? I'm no longer needed???

Don't really know... Just let things be, I guess...

Over the Weekends

2008-06-01T09:41:00.001+08:00

Friday night... Finally bought the toys for my nephew...

After which, met a friend for dinner.. Supposed to have steambaot at Paradiz Centre's Hokkaido restaurant.. When we reached there, it was closed for renovations..

So, we walked to Plaza Singapura.. Had dinner at "Lao Bei Jing"... It was a great dinner.. Talking about the past and crapping all the way till 10 plus..

The we walked to Paradiz Centre's bus-stop to catch a bus... Coincidently, met Ah Hau taking the same bus as us and yea.. The crapping continues on the bus.. Hahaha...

Saturday night.. Went to Geylang Lor 27A for the Yong He's (You Tiao Da Wang) for supper.. The standard has dropped greatly.. Really cannot make it anymore..

Then again, we crapped till 12 plus.. Hahaha..

My friend commented that I look very "zuai" (aka "xia lan") when I smoke.. -__-""" I never knew that loh....

Anyway, it seems like it's been a good weekend for me again..

Oh yar.. The conflict between me and my colleague has been resolved by Tuesday night...

Received an offer letter from my University to study honours.. But have to take it over at Australia..

Was still thinking of whether should I go to Australia, find a job there and continue on with my honours... Was tempted but I guess not as I have commitments and responsibilities here...

My eldest brother came back yesterday and "how lian" with me that he will have a degree with honours soon while I don't have and he will study for Masters and be higher than me in educational level..

WTF... Make me "du lan" only... Haiz.. Think my family too competitive liaoz.. Can't even slack for a moment...

Should I proceed with Masters then??? Hmmm.... But Masters in what and at where??? Hmmm...

Conflicts and Understandings..

2008-05-26T21:57:00.001+08:00

Today, I did something wrong to pissed a colleague off so badly that she scolded me..

Yea.. I was shooting my mouth off again asking her to improve on some of her work-related professionalism..

I guess the ultimate sentence would be, "If I was the client and I see you, I won't give you the business"...

Yea.. And was scolded very badly and was told to reflect on my weaknesses..

Kept on apologizing but to no avail..

*sign*

Guess that I'm the ultimate bastard yar?

What I meant for good, people took it for bad.. Guess it's because of my lack of tact.. And I thought that she was someone who could take it.. Guess I was wrong..

To do self-reflection.. When have I stopped doing that? Not even once..

Looking back at my youth and now, I dare say that I've made a lot of significant changes..

If I say last time, I scolded a colleague in an open office concept where other departments can hear, and I scolded two managers before.. Who will believe???

A director once asked me why I don't take car license.. I replied saying that I was afraid of my hot temper, she didn't believed..

My major faults: A tongue of poison, directness, tactlessness, pride and egoism.. Yea.. Spent years trying to change and I believe I did improve..

But I guess that it was not enough as I offended her..

My life.. Has always been trying and trying to improve myself.. Just because of one verse, "To strive unto perfection.."

Likewise, I have hoped that my loved ones will improve and evolve to be stronger and stronger.. Intentions are good, but the lack of tactfulness I guess..

Looking back again.. In this aspect, I have improved also.. I used to be more merciless and really scold friends.. But I guess the improvement was still not enough..

But then again, I learnt another important lesson I guess..

Last night, a friend gave me some home baked cookies to try.. To me, it was already very good. But she said her friends who had tried previous batches all said it was totally not up to her standard..

And so, what's the lesson? People who do not know my past will not understand what I'm trying to do and say and will still judge based on the current me rather than comparing to my past as they do not know anything or have anything to compare with..

Just last year, I learnt how to praise, motivate and push people.. Though still quite raw, but am still learning.. I was never one who will encourage, praise and motivate people.. To me, it's more of do or die... But that's the past..

Self-reflection.. Do I not do it? I am nothing more than just a man limited by flesh and blood and an idiotic brain and heart.. I am nothing more than a tiny speck of dust in the universe that is not even noticable at all..

She also said, if I'm that good, I should go and do the job.. Seriously.. I'm not that good.. I just believe in training and improvement..

In accordance to Sun Zi's Art of War, each person has his role in the army.. It is structured in a way where it fully maximises each person's potential in accordance to age, strengths, weaknesses and skills..

Those who are good are trained into special strike forces..

Likewise, in every organization, I believe that a good general will train people to maximise their potential..

The general might be just a strategist but might not know every single job that well and that good. But the good general is able to provide good guidance and training to maximise the potential of his men..

I wanted her to excel.. Really.. My tactlessness again.. Think I too kaypoh ba..

The conclusion: I am still in the wrong.. I've seeked forgiveness and has not gained it yet.. If she was to hate and ignore me all her life, so be it I guess.. I only have myself to blame..

Of.... Babies...

2008-05-25T18:37:00.000+08:00

Well, my nephew came in the afternoon..

Already 5 months since he first saw the light...

Yea.. Had a lot of fun with him... And he was like salivating all over me.. -__-"""

And sucking on me, pinching me, and making a big fuss when I'm not playing with him.. Haha..

Yea yea.. He did not cry this time round.. My favourite nephew as of now.. Wahahaa..

I saw him today, and realised something.. I took out my baby photos to do a comparison... Gosh.. He does look a lot like me when I was still a baby.. Wahahaha..

But of course, he has sharper features and more handsome I guess.. But the similarity is there loh..

Just carried him in front of my desktop and let him listen to Mandarin and Jap Anime songs.. Hahaha...

Then, I ALMOST did something evil.. He keeps wanting to bite things, so I asked him, "You want this???" and showed him the packet.. The packet of cigs.. Wahaahha..

But no lah.. I did NOT feed it to him.. I may be mad, but still has some logical sense in me..

Hahaha.. I'm the evil uncle...

Gosh.. I simply love babies!~! Who will be the one to help me to have one??? I don't really mind if my future baby is a male or female..

Actually.. Hmm.. If my child is a male, he's gonna have a tough time.. Independence training.. Wahaahaha..

If it's a SHE, then she's gonna be my little princess.. Favouritism?? I don't think so wor.. Guys supposed to be strong to take care of their own family in future loh.. No weakling males in my family.. Wahahaha...

Who is and will be the one???

Realization and Enlightenment..

2008-05-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

Just realised..

1) There is nothing new under the sun..

2) The heart confuses the mind..

Stepping back to look at things today.. Realised that I lost myself... But finally, I saw and realised and know...

Yea.. I was stupid and blind then.. The heart always confuses me..

Good thing I finally saw the Light.. And I think I know what I can do, and should do...

To Ah Hau: Nope.. It's not making any choices as yet.. Hahaaha.. But I guess it's part of it.. :p

Weekends!~!

2008-05-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

Yesterday and today was quite eventful for me..

Yesterday, had dinner with ex-colleagues again.. Had Asian Kitchen before having mudpies for dessert.. Haha

After that, went to meet Ah Hau at Timbre again.. Found a place where we can sit and smoke..

Finally.. After so long.. It's such a nice feeling to be able to sit down, enjoy the music, drink and smoke.. Ahahaha...

Chatted a bit on our love life... Then he told me something like if I make the wrong choice, he will not forgive me, ever.. -__-"""

But then again, I totally enjoyed myself last night.. Plus all the stupid sms-es.. Don't know if the sms-es were just in time or what... Hopefully it was ba..

Today, just slack at home.. Went out to have supper with a friend.. The all time favourite Geylang's frog porridge.. Wahahaha..

And then, we walked home.. -__-"""

Yea.. First time I walked home with my friend from Geylang.. And my legs were aching from climbing 33 storeys from yesterday's fire drill.. Hahahaha...

Last of all.. I hope and pray that she'll recover soon... *Haiz*

Sometimes, I just feel helpless in not able to do anything..

Sianzelogy..

Macross Love Songs...

2008-05-24T18:22:00.000+08:00

Macross Frontier... Quite a nice anime..

The storyline, as always, remains similar to the first Macross..

One guy who loves 2 gals..

And the battle scenes are always accompanied with great songs..

Diamond Crevasse - Battle Version

Ending Version

Lyrics

When I was still in love with god,
I never expected such a farewell would come.
If I had known I could never feel your touch again,
I would've hoped to be embraced just one last time.

It's long long good-bye...

Goodbye, goodbye, so many times,
I repeated the word to myself,
Waving my hands. It's only graceful, right?
Now, I long to be stronger.

I met you, the stars sparkled, and I was born.
I love you, therefore I am.
What good is waiting for a hopeless miracle?
Through my tear-filled vision, the planet's twinkle is gone...

I can't ever forget your warmth,
Your kindness, and your all-encompassing hands.
It's long long good-bye

Goodbye, goodbye, my beloved.
I came this far because you were here.
I wasn't alone, was I?
Now, I long for answers.

Catch a falling star that looks ablazed and light a fire,
I still want to love, and I still want to be loved.
What good is a lone freezing body to this world?
I long for you to finally drop your act...

What's wrong? Why can't I stop my tears from overflowing?

I met you, the stars sparkled, and I was born.
I love you, therefore I am.
What good is waiting for a hopeless miracle?
Through my tear-filled vision, the planet's twinkle is gone...

If we are reincarnated and can meet again some day,
Please find me and hold me tight,
And make sure you don't let go again.
I wish the planet would whisper to me that I'm not alone...

Do you Remember Love - first Macross movie theme

Right now, I hear your voice
saying "Come here to me."
Just when it seemed sadness is about to overcome me.
Right now, I see you your figure walking over to me.
As I wait with my eyes closed.

Until yesterday became now
My heart that was louded with tears

Chorus

Do you remember that moment when our eyes first met
Do you remember that moment when our hands first touched
It was the first glow of love between us
I love you so

2nd Part
Now I can see your eyes
Even if we are far apart
Now I believe in your love
Although you are far away, please protect me

Until yesterday
My world was clouded with tears

(Chorus)

One of my all time favourite.. Haha..

*haiz*

Good & Bad Day...

2008-05-19T11:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a good and bad day for me..

It started out good as I went for Jet's one month birthday celebration...

Man.. It was good.. Met up some old friends and had a good lunch...

After that, me and another friend just slack at his house...

At one time, I carried the baby and pat him to sleep.. Talk about bliss... Too bad he's not my own baby.. Haha..

Gosh.. I do love kids!~! Too bad he isn't mine.. Hahaha...

After that, we had a mahjong session.. Was interupted a few times by the baby.. But we were fine with it...

There was this one time where the father held the kid and the baby suddenly keep crying.. As the father draws the tiles, he was like getting "ka deo and kang" with every single draw...

-__-"""

Anyway, I ended up losing money and things go downhill from there.. I didn't really mind losing the money.. Not a lot.. Haha..

Then, me and my friend just walked home.. We lived nearby one another anyway.. After my friend reached his block and I was alone, I received an sms..

Initially I was like, -__-""... The one who just went up to his house sms me for what?? Cause I dun think anyone will sms me like 3am in the morning.. Haha..

But no.. It was from Her.. The ultimate truth...

To summarise, I got rejected in a "soft" way..

Feeling pissed off also.. At a guy who treats gals like toys..

Also hurting inside that she was so hurt before...

*Haiz*.. Anyway, I just told her to think it through properly again.. Cos I know I won't do that kinda things to a gal, especially to the one I love, and I am already a grown up man, not a boy anymore..

Yea.. I hope to make a difference in her life and mend her wounds through time.. It's jsut a matter of whether she lets me into her world or not..

Through gentleness, kindness, concern and love..

People like to say.. "She is mine.."

I prefer to say.. "You are mine and I am yours.."

"Let me take your hand and lead you through the valley of darkness and pain..."

Past and Future..

2008-05-18T09:50:00.000+08:00

Was talking with my ex yesterday afternoon over msn..

Me: "I don't flirt with the gals in the pubs.."

She: " Yes you will..."

Me: "I swear upon my pride and honour that I never flirted with any of the gals in the pubs while you were still with me..."

She: "You don't give a sense of security.. But I let my bf go.."

-__-"""

Haha.. We wasn't quarrelling lah.. Just a discussion.. Haha..

Anyway it ended with:

Me: "Nvm lah.. That's the past.. I've tried my best.. Haha"

She: "Yar.."

*Sign*.. I don't know what's wrong with me.. I tried to maintain high morality and faithfulness, and yet, this sort of thing can happen.. And I only went pub to meet up with friends like only once every 3 to 4 months.. Every other single day and weekends were spent with her...

I really playboy meh?? I don't think so leh.. Sianz...

After my last relationship, I guess I became more careful and also became skeptical of myself.. It's the feeling of like wanting something, but scare of it... But it's not the fault of my ex lah.. Guess that both of us were still immatured at that time.. In our youth.. Haha..

But then again, I'm a fighter.. Never say diez.. Try and try and try again till I get it right.. Hahaha...

I'll definitely work super hard at the next relationship.. "Zetai" (Jap for "Definitely", but dunno if I spell it correctly.. wahahaha..)

Bankai!~!

Inpromptu..

2008-05-17T11:08:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. Yet another friend has commented that my post on "The Greatest Fool" has affected him.. -__-""

Received request to put up a tagboard for them to bomb.. So ok.. Please look to the right side of this blog for the "bombing".. Hahaha...

Hmmm... A few days ago, a colleague of mine was commenting on my Virgo traits.. -__-""

She's from another department but we live nearby, so I often talk with her.. The admin side are just wondering and wondering why I'm so close to her while I don't really bother with them..

Well, sometimes when I walk past, I'll ask her whether she had lunch, going home or feeling better or not.. Cause she has a weak body.. So, I'm just showing some concern..

Well, we discussed this matter while on our way back a few days ago..

To summarise, she said Virgos only allow some certain people into their world while keeping and shutting others out totally...

And she says that I'm like that.. -__-"""

Well, I guess there's some truths in there.. Yea.. I do let some people in, and reject others out totally..

I think one of the limits will be my pride.. Haha.. For someone who is new to me, if he/she oversteps my boundaries and hurt my pride, he/she will be totally rejected out of my world forever..

And there are some other restrictions also lah.. But of course, if I'm interested in the gal, I'll let it pass by me.. Hahahaha...

Hey, I may talk rubbish and crap a lot.. But doesn't mean that I'll let myself be insulted...

Yea yea.. I still have a lot of Virgo and Monkey in me...

Ok.. I guess that from the previous few postings, friends would have deduced that I fell in love again..

This time round, with a colleague from my current company.. Well, everything's still in grey area..

I'm actually feeling quite sianz.. Seems like I do not have any fate with the word "love''..

Or maybe it's just my character.. Tend to be crazy, talk too much rubbish, not serious, critical etc etc..

And imagine.. A Virgo meets love and becomes totally confused and stupid, which is not in-line with a Virgo's character..

Yea yea.. I'm feeling a bit tired, pissed off at this love thingy..

Seems like if I'm being myself, I can attract gals (whom I have no feelings for) easily.. If I fall in love, I'm totally not myself and will become stupid and end up losing everything..

Sianzelogy...

Just maybe, someday, this Virgo will totally reject love out of his world forever... But then again, I think it'll be quite impossible as Virgos are made for intimate love.. Haha..

Intimate Love.. Yea.. I'm not those kind who will openly express myself in public of my love.. Rather, I prefer to be in a world where only both me and my future partner exists and express my romance and love through there...

Actually, I think I'm quite easy-going with the one I love.. I don't expect too much.. I just want her to be herself in front of me.. Don't need to put on a mask or act..

Well, in actual fact, my love would be as what was written since ancient times..

"Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boost.." etc etc...

Haha..

Sianz.. Feeling light-headed now... Thought too much stupid things last night..

Freaky-ology..

What Really Affects...

2008-05-15T19:31:00.001+08:00

Hmmm.. Just read a friend's post.. Didn't know my last posting on the "Greatest Fool" affect him so much.. My bad.. And I was just talking and critisizing about myself.. Haha..

Well, I guess my issues are still unresolved.. Still feeling lost.. Still dunno anything.. Still doing nothing and still remaining as the Greatest Fool...

All because of a stupid "big-heartedness" of saying,"I understand and I won't force or push you.. Just hope that you'll one day know that I am different from the little boys you had.."

-__-"""

Also read another friend's blog just now.. About not knowing how to love, is unable to give, cannot take failure..

I guess I'm in a similar boat.. I also don't know if I can make it at all in love.. But all I know is if I don't try, it'll leave regrets in my latter life..

Yea.. I'm someone who yearns for love and yet, maintain a careful stance and is careful in my selection.. So careful that I'm single for years..

In market research terms, my "incident rate" is zero as of now.. Haha..

And I guess I'll continue to be the greatest fool for now.. Till that woman gives me an answer, I will stick around for a while..

Till she gives me an answer, I will not move on..

Yea.. Directions might change in the future depending on her answer...

But I don't think my friends will worry for me.. Since I recover and pick myself up easily.. Haha...

But as of now, my heart is still shivering and feeling lost.. Yea.. I don't have this feeling for quite some time already and thought that my heart has died.. Haha..

Hope that woman will give me an answer soon...

Definitions and Knighthood...

2008-05-11T11:33:00.000+08:00

Definition of Hime:

Someone to love, serve, protect and to be with for all eternity.. With a simple wish for her to be happy and stay happy always...

Definition of Relationship:

To sacrifice time and energy to be with the partner (Might not be the one I'll love the most..)

Definition of a Relationship with a Hime:

To love, serve, protect with all my heart, soul, mind and might to the point of giving it all and yet expecting nothing in return but her love... (Hime is the one whom I will love most..)

As friends will know.. I don't really anyhow call gals Hime even though I may be very nice to them.. Haha..

And I've come to a decision that for my next relationship, I'll give it my all, do my best and give her all the love in the world...

One heart, one mind, one soul, one life for Hime-sama... The honour and pride of the knights...

Haha...

The Greatest Fool...

2008-05-10T22:06:00.001+08:00

The greatest fool... Is the one who tries to reject the one he loves even before anything was started..

The greatest fool.. Is the one who tries to reject love and yet is unable to control, and yet tries to control...

The greatest fool.. Is the one who keeps on trying and trying even when it seems like rejection and in the meantime, fights battles after battle between the heart and the mind..

The greatest fool.. Is the one who tries to reject love, acts nonchalent and yet, keeps getting sad at knowing things...

The greatest fool.. Is the one who thinks he knows, but ends up knowing nothing, doing nothing and getting lost..

The greatest fool.. Is the one who asks, and then wishes to be rejected outright so as to minimize the hurt..

The greatest fool.. Is the one who keeps everything inside, thinks too much and ends up losing everything...

Yea.. I am that fool..

I really don't know anything anymore....

Sat Nite Chill Out

2008-05-04T11:39:00.000+08:00

At about 10+ last night, a good old friend messaged me, "Bored"..

Haha.. So begin the almost endless chain of sms-ing about what to do and where to do..

In the end, we settled to meet up first and to go to Boat Quay to scout around..

Took a cab down and started walking down the stretch.. Somehow, I feel so totally out of place there... Age-wise and fashion-sense I guess.. Haha..

At 12am, we ended up sitting in Timbre..

Had a few bottles of drink, had some chat and enjoyed the music there...

It's a good thing that we finally found a place we both enjoyed after so many years.. Haha

Yap.. We decided to make it our chilling out haunt next time.. Drinks are a bit expensive compare to other places, but who cares if we enjoy ourselves right??? Haha..

Boss or Balls???

2008-05-03T16:44:00.000+08:00

Been out for the past week... Super sick... Even had blood in my phlegm..

But at least felt better today already... I really hate the dentist!~!

My brain never stops thinking.. Really..

Really wonder what I want to achieve out of life.. Not that I am not enjoying my current position.. But seriously.. How long can a low level job keep me??? Nope.. I'm not thinking of leaving as yet...

Was talking to my bro this morning on msn on our current jobs and becoming bosses.. Haha..

I was also thinking.. Current jobs out there don't excite me at all.. Been here and there... What's left for my career???

Even something that I thought might excite me, failed miserably.. Like what my bro said, "Consultant = To Con and Insult"... Wahaha.. At least I think that's the case for the industry I'm currently in...

Think and think.. Only leaving my two ultimate options. To be a boss or be a Warren Buffett wannabe.. Hahaha..

Let me slowly think first ba.. Must wait for opportunity...

Yea yea.. I am still being indecisive on some things.. Wonder what happened to me.. Business decisions and social decisions are quickly made... But... In other areas, I think I failed very miserably...

So for now, I think I'll stay on the project team.. Haha...

Fear is...

2008-04-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

Fear is when you are waiting for your turn at the dentist to extract two decayed teeth..

Yea.. I went for it today... Took 3 shots of anaesthetic on each side... Face was totally numb..

Dentist said that my blood flow wasn't a lot.. Good thing that it stopped within a few hours.. Haha..

Asked me if I wanted to bring home the two teeth.. I didn't bothered. Haha..

I survived the Dentist!~!

Now, nursing the numbing pain on both side of my mouth...

And back to work tomorrow.. Sianz...

Random-nization 02

2008-04-27T21:51:00.000+08:00

Woah... I can't believe it myself..

Two days in a row, I met up with an ex-colleague.. Or rather, my "shi-fu" at my ex-company.. But she's not that old.. Only 4 yrs younger than me..

Well, I believe she was stressed by me in the past when she taught me how to use the system and how to do the work.. Haha.. I questioned her a lot and she doesn't have the answers.. Hahaha..

Yesterday, I met her for a movie and dinner... Dinner and supper was great, but movie sucks..

Just now, talked to her on msn and then met her for my supper, her dinner, at Geylang's frog porridge..

But then again, I'm quite free during the weekends.. I have no life.. Haha.. So, she asked, I just go loh.. Free anyway...

Good also as it frees up my mind from all those cannot make it thoughts..

Yar.. Recently been thinking and thinking till my brain is gonna explode.. Cause I can't get any conclusion on the matter at all.. Jialatz..

Talking about my likings.. They are as follows:

1) Anime

2) Eating good food (Geylang's frog porridge is tops of the list)

3) Meeting up friends to talk cock.. Whether it be over coffee or food, anything goes.. Haha

4) Listening to music

5) Aquariums

6) Tech stuffs like DIY computer hardware etc..

7) The night where it's all silent

8) The rain where it is so refreshing and cooling

9) The morning where everything starts afresh..

and lastly but not least,

10) Sleeping..

Wahahaha...

Dislikes

1) Gals who are "teh"

2) People who wakes me up from my sleep..

I will be totally irritated and in very foul mood.. Unless that person is very close to my heart.. For example, Hime, bros and sisters.. Hmmm.. Doesn't define too well yar?? Haha..

3) Troublesome things..

The thing is, I will go through troublesome things for friends, but not for myself.. Weird right???

4) Doubting Me

It's a pride thing I guess..

5) Feel like going out but can get no one to go with..

*Haiz* What to do???

6) Complicated Things..

7) The buzzing sound of mosquitoes in my ear when I am sleeping at night..

Damn irritating..

And a million others... hahaha..

Yea yea.. I'm freaking confused recently and things are not going that well...

Thank God for my ex-colleague who occupied my time these two days.. If not, I think I will go totally mad...

Sianzelogy..

Random-nization..

2008-04-27T10:27:00.001+08:00

Went to watch the movie, "The Forbidden Kingdom" last night..

Felt quite disappointed at the show.. Maybe the actor wasn't up to the task of portraying the Monkey King..

Maybe the Monkey wasn't given enough screens...

For me, personally, I think the saving grace for the show is Liu Yi Fei.. Hahaha...

Anway, before the show, went to Crystal Jade for dinner.. Had some congee with a few side dishes...

And after the show, went to have mudpie... The mudpie was heavenly.. Really.. Haha..

Time draws neigh for my "doom".. Yar... The extraction of my teeth tomorrow...

Oh well. hope I won't suffer the pain for too long.. Haha..

Anyway, Naruto has a new opening which I liked a lot and below are the YouTube video and the translated lyrics..

Blue Bird - Naruto

If you said you could fly, You would never come back down
You only have eyes for that blue blue sky

You've yet to learn what sadness is
And are just now grasping what pain is
Even the feelings I have for you,
Must be expressed with words

As you awake from a dream into an unknown world
Spread your wings and take flight!

Chorus:
If you said you could fly, You would never come back down
You only have eyes for that blue blue sky

You know if you can just make it through, you'll find what you seek
So keep trying to break free
To that blue, blue sky (x3)

Rattlings..

2008-04-24T21:55:00.000+08:00

Been quite busy recently with some interim reporting..

Freaking staring at the computer, data and the reports for a few days now..

I wonder where do I get the motivation to come home and to stare again at my desktop.. Haha..

Been doing some thinking also.. Nah.. It's not regarding my job.. I am still quite happy here.. Haha.. Just thinking about life and some particular areas...

Think I've got another breakthrough.. Haha.. Things getting back to normal I guess...

Thinking to myself.. If I am gonna remain single, I might as well get a car license and buy a car for my own comfort..

Being single does have its perks too.. Like how much freedom I have, how much money I can save and splurge on myself (ie: Technological stuffs)...

But the heart does get lonely sometimes and need some companionship..

Last time, friends used to say I'll be the first one among them to settle down.. Seems like they are wrong.. I am like one of the last few among them.. Haha..

Thinking back, I've been spending the past few years trying to attain knowledge and capabilities.. A good career..

Looking at where I am not.. *Sign*.. I ask myself, is it really worth all my time doing those things.. In economic terms, I would call it unstructured employment.. Haha.. Or rather, job scope doesn't match the capabilities leading to slackness..

In the end, I sacrificed my love life for nothing...

I used to believe a saying: "If you are going to complain, why not shift that energy into trying???"

One whole round to naught..

But I guess my friends are also right in some sense.. My craziness has driven off many potential gals too.. Haha.. I really need to tone down.. After all, I'm growing older.. Haha..

It's just that personally, I feel that if there's no issue or anything serious to handle and resolve, I will rather be a little crazy and spend my time laughing than being serious..

When it comes to advices, I don't think I lack the knowledge or the teachings.. I've been around for long enough and seen a lot..

But then again, my teachings are hard but good.. Who will be able to swallow it? It's better to keep quiet and just smile.. Haha..

Yar lah.. What people see is the outside, but not my inside.. So, since the outside reflects badly, naturally it'll push away Cupid.. Hahaha...

In the end, the conclusion, who ask me to attitude and buttocks itchy to follow the following two philosophy???

1) 人定胜天

2) 我自行我道

Oh yar.. Recently I heard a friend hum a song which I find quite nice.. Enjoy!~!

彩虹 - 周杰伦

Older..

2008-04-23T21:50:00.001+08:00

Recently, been getting a little naggy.. Haha.. Getting more and more to be like a fatherly figure..

Well, my point of view is, if one is not important to me, I won't even bother to "nag" at all loh.. Haha..

Growing older.. Hmmm.. Observing my own personal attitudes and behaviour for these past year, I realised I've undergone great changes..

1) Energy-less

I'm no longer as energetic as the past.. Seems like my energy level has suddenly gone super low for the past year.. I don't even know why.. Even my physical strength..

2) Fighting Spirit and Determination

Seems like I have lost quite a bit on those two.. Feeling comfortable in my current position as well..

3) Temper

Is more patient and easy going nowadays.. In situations where I'm supposed to get angry in the past, I would not anymore...

4) Speechless

Getting less and less crazy.. Getting less and less rubbish.. Getting less and less lame.. Hahaha.. At least that's what one of my buddies from Poly told me..

Friends used to tell me not to be so hard on myself.. I tried recently and performance-wise, it's real bad.. Hahaha..

Maybe I've slacked too much... I've tried not to be perfectionist.. Trying to be a normal, average human being.. And I've definitely succeeded in it.. Because I am only being a employee and not exploiting any of my talents at all..

Just making sure everyday's workflow is smooth for reporting and no bottlenecks or hiccups and to resolve any issues with vendors..

Then I ask myself again.. Is this what I truely want???

Recently, a lot of questions popping out here and there.. What's a high profile person like me hiding in a hole in the current company???

But seriously, I do enjoy being unknown.. Haha.. Less responsibilities... But then again, I thrive best in challenges...

What will my future be??? I don't know..

Just really hope to have a partner for now..

I missed loving and being loved..

Empty for 6 long years already...

Habitual Creatures Or???

2008-04-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

Humans.. A bunch of habitual creatures...

And I guess I fall into that category..

Recently, I guess I've developed some new habits.. Getting used to have someone around me, used to doing some things etc etc etc...

Seems like when that something is not done or someone is not around, it just feels not right.. Deep down, the heart will be asking,"Where is it/he/she??? What have I not done for the day???"

Yet.. Things just get more and more complicated when more and more questions are raised within a few seconds and it gets real confusing.. To the point of being frustrated and irritated at my own ineptness..

Is it a need? Or is it a want? Is it really necessary?

Being "bo chap" helps in a lot of things. But for me, personally, there is only one area that the "bo chapness" fails to invade and take root..

And this post has gotten complicated from the questions that I raised.. And deviated from the topic... Hahaha...

Wouldn't it be nice if things were simple and everyone is child-like? And I mean child-like, not childish...

*Haiz* I hate all these things.. Why can't I just do without it???

Summary of Post: There is no structure nor does it seem to have a topic. But that topic is really in this post.. Just need to look for the buried clues.. Haha..

Some close friends may know what I'm talking about I guess..

Incessant Nagging & Bloodline...

2008-04-20T09:07:00.000+08:00

Dad was nagging at me again last night...

Asking me when's my turn to "mate and breed" another me.. That i have so many female colleagues, just choose one..

-__-"""

As if it's so simple to make a gal fall in love with me.. Hahaha...

I just replied that the world doesn't need another me.. Haha.. My 2nd elder brother has "breeded" successfully and his child will carry on the bloodline...

But really.. I do really want a child to carry on my legacy.. Where I've failed, he or she will succeed..

ok... Legacy is not the word to use here... Haha.. What legacy do I have anyway??

Neither will I force my dreams on my beloved future child (if I have any).. Just let him or her be and choose the path for himself/herself..

I will just play a supporting role.. Haha..

Will my bloodline limit be lost forever??? Stay tune, for the next episode of "Naruto", "The Bloodline Limit of the Lim Family... Bankai!~!" (Oops.. that's "Bleach".. Wahahaha...)

Hahaha... Being an anime freak again..

Born on the 19th of April

2008-04-20T09:03:00.000+08:00

I'm a bit late, but nevertheless...

Congratulations to Jeff and Windy for the birth of their first and new baby boy, Jet!~!

Haha.. Not bad.. Birthdate is one month behind his daddy's birthdate.. Makes it easier to remember also... Hahaha...

May the baby boy grow up to be strong, healthy and wise!~!

Messed Up

2008-04-20T00:02:00.000+08:00

Something not right recently.. It's making me to do and say the wrong things..

What is this feeling that is causing me to lose myself??? It seems so alien...

Is it because of my decayed teeth that is causing me sleepless nights?

Hmmm.. Don't think so because the pain has subsided and I am going for the extraction soon.. It's only a small matter.. Shouldn't bother me that much...

Or is it because that baby Jet Tang who has just came into this world a few hours ago???

Congrats to Ah Jeff and Windy!~! And glad that both mother and child are ok... Haha...

It's supposed to be a joyous occasion, so this shouldn't be messing me up either..

So, what or who is it exactly???

What Really Matters...

2008-04-14T19:59:00.000+08:00

$$$

Wahahaha.. Came home, tore open a letter and found out how much the govt is giving me...

Not a lot.. Can't even pay for my i-mate Ultimate..

But it's better than nothing I guess...

Yea... The GST credits and other $$$ is here..

But sianz.. Payout in intervals of 3 months...

Check your mailboxes..

Feeling... Irritated...

2008-04-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

My body feels weird.. Dunno why, but feel quite irritated...

It happened after I woke up from my nap.. Haha.. Maybe my body wants to rest more but I forced it to wake up and now, it's rebelling against me.. Hahaha...

Went to buy MacDonald's in a rather pissed off mood.. The long queue pissed me off further.. Plus the lousy customer service, pissed me off totally..

Reminds me.. I just failed a salesperson's sales process this week.. Actually, I did try to help him along and guide him by asking questions... But he either have attitude problem, simply bo chap or a total idiot..

Haha.. I don't like to feed people.. Rather, I prefer to guide people along by asking questions.. As they say, "Teach a man to fish" instead of "Giving a man a fish"...

In short, I believe in helping others if they'll want to help themselves in the first place.. If not, I won't waste my energy...

At least the release of Macross Zero helped to clear a bit of my irritation...

Weekends just pass so fast!~!

Random Rants..

2008-04-13T10:41:00.000+08:00

Stuck at home nowadays during weekends..

Not much of a social life..

Or rather, no yearning to go anywhere.. Haha..

There was this time when a colleague asked me why I don't go out on weekends.. that I should enjoy life...

I replied. "Been there, done that"... Hahaha..

I guess that I've been to a lot of places and done a lot of things in SG in the past when I was still a youth.. So, there's like nothing refreshing anymore...

Sometimes, I just say SG is a boring place.. Well, to some extend..

However, it is not the SG is truly a boring place (except that there's really nowhere to go after 9.. Haha..)

It is more of like there's no one to enjoy the outings with me anymore.. As in, friends are busy with their own families (girlfriends, wives and kids), social life (other friends and colleagues other than me) and their work..

Well, I still do enjoy meeting them up once in a while to crap and catch up.. But these times are really rare I guess..

Being in different places and experiencing different things also does lessen the common areas to chat about.. Areas of interests start to differ..

In short, you need someone or some people to make outings in SG a more interesting one.. Haha..

Conclusion: I need someone by my side NOW!~! Wahahaha....

Someone to watch the movies with me, someone to visit the restaurants, eating places, Geylang's Frog Porridge place to eat all the good food together.. Haha..

Jialat.. Nowadays, people don't stop nagging at me...

Friends: "Time for you to settle down and get a girlfriend"
Parents: "When you bring a gal back for us to see???"
Eldest Brother: "Please bring a partner for my wedding dinner. I will leave an extra seat for you"
2nd Elder Brother: "Apply for a flat at Queenstown. Building new flats here.."

Luckily, my ex-colleagues only asked me to stop smoking.. And more fortunately, no one has nagged at me in the workplace to stop smoking.. Hahaha...

People, you think so easy to find meh??? Most gals are like attached nowadays.. How to find???

Some factors to consider in tabulating the figures of me getting attached:

1) No car and refused to get a license

The cost of living here is so high.. Siao meh?? I get license, sure itchy buttocks go get a car one loh. Cannot cannot.. I not high income earner...

Wait till I get married then I go take license for future wife and child.. Hahaha

2) Smoker

I think being a smoker puts off most gals.. At least I feel that no matter how good someone is, the tag of being a smoker will automatically reduce the points to zero... Hahaha

3) Crappy and Mischievious: Not serious

I think this is a major factor because I always kena complain for this.. Hahaha...

But, I don't really talk a lot nowadays.. I guess that when one grows older, the less things he'll say..

Or rather,"The wiser you get, more less words you speak"... wahahaha... Derived from,"Empty vessels make the most noise"... Kekekeke...

4) Bo-Chap

Yea.. I appear very bo chap and cold for most of the times.. I don't think anyone will believe I am passionate inside of me.. Hahaha..

Aiyah.. I just do things silently and didn't bother to let others know mah.. Then also to those I not close with, I don't even bother to explain the reasons behind my actions.. Haha..

5) Egoism

I think most of my friends will say I'm super egoistic.. Haha.. I only have one friend from Uni that says I am not being egoistic.. She says that it is because I can achieve and has achieved, therefore, I am just speaking the truth.. Hahaha..

But I think I got some pride also lah..

Jialat leh.. To be humble means not to say anything about my strengths.. Then I appear to be a normal person liaoz with limited capabilities..

If I say too much, I will appear egoistic.. Headache.. Bo chap liaoz lah.. Hahaha...

6) Not in the good-looker class

Yea.. Not handsome.. And super under-weight.. Though people tells me that looks are not important to gals..

But one gal did tell me size does matter.. Don't misunderstand.. Please.. She's talking about my built.. She says I'm too thin to give gals a sense of security..

-__-" I wanna get fatter but is unable loh.. Tried a lot of methods in the past from western to chinese medication to eating lots of chocolate and drinking milk also no use... How???

7) Me and my stupid moral values

As I always maintain, gals with boyfriends, I won't touch.. If I have an interest in them, I also the most treat them very well, but won't be too extremely good to them also..

Last time quite bad.. I treat gals too good, got one came and ask me if I'm interested in her or not.. I really got a shock then because I'm not interested in her loh... Hahaha.. Nowadays, I try to control myself lah..

8) Ah Beng Mannerism

Hahaha... Read my post will know liaoz loh.. All the singlish and the complainings and everything.. Wahahaha.. Hmmm.. Maybe I should act high class.. But.. *haiz*.. I also dunno what I'm like..

Some days, I'm the Ah Beng, some days, I'm a workaholic.. Some times, a perfect gentleman.. How how how???? Too much variations liaoz..

9) Mood Variations

My ex-girlfriend said that my mood changes faster than gals and the weather.. Very jialat right??? Wahahaha...

Diez lah... Tabulate the statistics, I think I belong to the bottom 5% of the normal curve.. That's like I have less than 5% success rate of getting a girlfriend..

So people.. Please stop nagging at me.. No gals want to date me one.. Hahaha...

Sianzelogy

Much Ado About Nothing - Heroes & Love...

2008-04-12T22:16:00.003+08:00

This is not a post about real life heroes or the American show, "Heroes"..

The heroes I'm talking about are those from Jin Yong's novels...

I just watched the China's production of "Bi Xue Jian" on TV..

I can't help but wonder..

In Jin Yong's novels, no matter how stupid (aka: Guo Jing) or handicapped (aka: Yang Guo), or even a beggar (aka: Xiao Feng), also got gals liking them.. Hahaha..

Wish that I am living in a world of martial arts.. Hahaha...

Meeting and Catching Up

2008-04-12T11:38:00.000+08:00

Last night, went and meet up my ex-colleagues for dinner..

Even though I have to wait 1.5 hours for them, it was a good meeting.. Except that my "boss" called me twice to check on some reports... Hahaha...

Ate at Marina Swensons.. We chatted and laughed till the shop closed at 12am++..

And I think we are the loudest group there... Haha..

Haha.. Didn't know time passed so fast when I'm enjoying myself..

However, found out something sad...

One of my closer ex-colleagues is on the verge of a mental breakdown..

She shared things with me but not with other colleagues, so I know her actual situation..

It's such a sad thing that I am not there physically to encourage her, to help her, to lend her my ears.. And my shoulders if she needs..

Heard that she cried a few times in office already...

*Sign*... Poor gal.. Stress from work, family and health matters... Hope all things turn out well for her in the end..

Kambate ne, gal!~!

Weekends, Monday and Thoughts..

2008-04-07T20:49:00.000+08:00

Had dinner with some friends on Friday at "Lao Bei Jing".. One of the restaurants from Tung Lok Group.. Food there really nice.. Rice was well done also..

After that, we went to Timbre to chill.. My first time there...

Quite a nice place with live band.. Haha..

Ordered small bottles of Heinekien and drank like 4 bottles before leaving wide awake..

Yea.. Wide awake because I didn't have even alcohol in me to intoxicate me yet.. Haha.. 4 small bottles too little liaoz lah.. Hahaha..

But yea.. I totally enjoyed that night.. Beer, music and friends.. Something that I haven't done in a long while.. haha..

Come Sunday.. Felt totally dehydrated.. Drank and drank lots of water.. Cannot make it.. Was at home rotting for the whole day... Jialat...

Monday.. Got off to a bad start.. Didn't have enough sleep.. Taxi driver was like complaining this and that.. Didn't even slow down at the hump.. WTF!~!

I guess the only good thing is that my "boss" not in office today.. So get to leave early.. Hahaha..

Ok lah.. Having dinner with ex-colleagues from ex-insurance company.. Hope that I'll enjoy it ba... Haha..

Recently.. Been seeing signs and meeting familiar faces.. Surrounding new colleagues also... Is it time already???

Please provide a guiding light for me and send someone.. Please.. Onegai Shimas.. (Is it spelt like that in Jap??? hahaha..)

These few days.. Right eye also twitching.. Dunno why.. Hmmm..

Maybe.. I've been thinking.. Is it almost time for merchants to cry for the "mother" that fed them???

Everything's confusing to me right now.. But I know where the answer lies.. Why am I still running??? *Sign*

Oh yar... These few months, upon stepping back into the working world, I've noticed some changes in the younger generation..

I don't know why.. But some refuses to admit that they have boyfriends even though that's the truth.. Some avoided the question... But finally they still told me the truth..

I was puzzled.. Why do they not say? Are they ashamed of their partners? Or are they just wanting a fling outside, which is more exciting for them??

I discussed this with a close friend of mine.. He said that most properly the gals are open to changing better partners...

That may be the reason too.. But.. Hmmm.. At least for me personally, I won't go and break up another relationship.. Haha..

I may be crappy and lame, but I still have high moral standards ok??? Hahahaha...

If my future girlfriend treat me like that and I find out, most properly I will initiate a breakup liaoz.. Haha.. I am too egoistic I guess.. Or maybe I see no more point in the relationship at all... Haha..

No need to test me whether I know or not.. I just know.. Haha.. I'm not prophetic, nor does it take a prophet to know whether a person is telling lies... Haha..

Don't forget last time I told my team-mates,"You all shake your buttocks a bit and I know what you are thinking about already.. No need to act.. Just say and tell me".. haha

Maybe because I've met lots of people, dealt with many individuals and is a societal/cultural observer as well.. That's why I KNOW... Hahaha..

My ex-colleagues from the insurance company also always surprise why I so quiet and yet know so many things... Wahaha.. It's a secret... :p

Don't forget.. I'm a left-hander, born in the year of the monkey and is a Virgo.. The ultimate combination I should say.. Haha.. Oh yar.. Centred brain according to some online tests and an IQ of 127... What more shall I say??? I'm egoistic... Wahahaa...

Recently also been feeling like giving up.. Fight so many years.. Gain so many knowledge.. Like it's all wasted.. A bit disappointed at life... Maybe because of my perfectionistic nature..

Forget about sad things..

My "god-son" coming soon in May!~! Yeah!~! I simply love babies!~! Wahahaha.. Little Jeff for me to play with liaoz... Haha.. All my skills and knowledge pass to him since I dun have any child of my own for now.. wahaha..

Da-sao jia you!~!

Updates Over the Past Few Weeks

2008-03-22T10:14:00.001+08:00

Well, started work for around 3 weeks already...

Started to bring work home to do..

But seriously, I have no complaints... Haha..

Enjoying my current workplace and the people there...

Met a colleague who was previously from my old Secondary school.. My "学妹".. Haha.. Had a few lunch sessions with her.. Quite a nice and kind person.. Even volunteered to teach those poor kids at a tuition centre every Saturday... Hard to find these type of gals around anymore right??? Oh yar.. And she can cook too.. Haha..

Hmmm.. Not bad hor.. But no interest leh.. No chemistry.... Hahaha...

Oh yar.. Seems like I'm surrounded by pigs in the company.. Not really lazy or what, but those born in the year of the pig.. Haha...

Well, I also finished my RT... Still fail my IPPT.. Haha..

Oh yar.. Over the IT show weekend, I tempted and bought for myself an i-Mate ultimate 6150 PDA phone.. Hahaha..

And I haven't use my Samsung U700 for even a year yet.. I think it's less than 6 months.. Haha..

Ok.. The phone seems to be better than my last O2 Xda IIs phone.. At least it's more stable and doesn't hang up on me when I receive a call.. I don't even have to do a soft reset every morning.. Haha..

Yar.. I've been busy and working OT again in my new workplace.. But I think it's ok. I'm enjoying it though.. Haha..

So, I guess most probably I will work long-term here for like at least 3 years and above.. Haha.. But then again, plans are subject to changes also.. :p

Meanwhile, do enjoy a song I like a lot from the anime, "The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya"

New Beginnings...

2008-02-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

Started first day of work today...

Not bad.. Haha.. I realised that there are only 2 guys in the company..

One is the CEO, the other is me.. Wahaha.. The rest are all gals.. faintz

Over 10++ of them I think...

Prettier than my ex company's gals also.. wahaha

Well, see how it goes.. I might work long term here...

New Toy

2008-02-24T22:14:00.000+08:00

Blessed by my bro today.. Got a new toy...

- Intel Duo Core Processor, 2.2Gb
- 2Gb, 800 Corsair Ram
- Nvidia Geforce 8800GT, 256Mb Graphics Card
- Asus Commando Motherboard
- 22" LCD Monitor

And I bought myself a Razor mouse...

Wahaha... Umm.. My bro will kill me for the Razor mouse.. Haha..

But then again, I feel siong.. Haha

Got the desktop and monitor free.. And the hardware configuration is 3/4 near my dream machine.. Haha..

The End..

2008-02-22T10:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my last day at the American company..

Finally.. It's the end for me at this company.. No more suffering.. Wahaha...

Well, I received a farewell card and $120 ang pow money as a farewell gift.. Not bad.. Haha..

So now, awaiting a new start in the new company which I hope I can survive for a few years.. Haha..

Farewell, stupid, lousy American company.. I diez also won't buy anything products from your company..

Ciaoz... :p

Ending...

2008-02-16T21:13:00.000+08:00

Submitted my resignation yesterday..

HOD seems frustrated and asked me to talk to my manager instead.. Haha..

So I talked to her loh.. She tried to compare the compensation package to retain me.. Too bad.. She gone the wrong way.. Haha.. She's not able to read my mind.. Immediately thought that it was because of the compensation package that I was leaving..

In the end, the conclusion she drew was: Even if the compensation package is lousier, I'm still going to leave anyway.. Haha..

Today, I went back to work to clear my backlogs before I leave..

Had a conversation with a Senior Assistant Manager.. There was a point where she said they have plans for me.. Then I asked her for the plans and she doesn't know much.. Haha

She think's I'm a three year old meh??? She think I'll just believe her like that and remain?? I've been through too much to believe those few simple words lah.. Haha..

In the end, I told her that one of the main problems with the department is the lack of communication.. Then I was thinking to myself, even if they have plans for me, it's already too late.. Haha..

Think the department will face its worst crisis ever in history.. Don't even know if the HOD can keep his seat anymore.. Haha..

Cos I heard another person is leaving also, besides me.. The department is also full of new people... So, haha.. All the best to them ba..

It's nearly the end for me at this company anyway... Haha..

Hopefully will have a good start in my new job next week...

Unexpectedly, But Good Start to the New Year

2008-02-14T21:21:00.000+08:00

Received a call today while I was going to pee..

After pee-ing, called back..

And... I've got the job!~! Wahaha..

Very very unexpectedly.. But after months of trying, finally a chance to enter into a work area that I like.. Wahaha...

Nope.. Not a banking job... Will reveal after a while..

The job also entails me to travel some times.. So... Free trips round the world.. Wahaha...

Well, seems like this year might be a good year for me?

At least I got a good start.. Wahaha...

All over Again.. Vicious Cycle...

2008-01-27T12:46:00.000+08:00

Life's vicious.. Really.. Haha..

Well, my RT started again today... Sianz..

Think the standard drop a lot leh.. Like the warming up also cannot make it one liaoz...

Didn't really do any exercise today..

*Haiz*...

Disappointment and Sadness..

2008-01-23T12:10:00.000+08:00

Did very badly for the interviw today..

Reason: Didn't have enough sleep..

End up, interviewer say I more suited to Research Assistant..

Sianz.. Hope that they even consider me for Research Assistant loh..

Cos.. I like writing research papers.. Really...

I am just a boring person who likes to write and type.. wahaha...

Really no mood today.. sianz...

Is It Just Me Or????

2008-01-18T20:29:00.000+08:00

*Sign*.. I don't know if it's just me or what.. But..

Today in meeting, my manager was saying that there are implementing some award to those who receive compliments from external parties..

Then, she pointed out that I had a few also and one of the people to receive that award..

I showed a puzzled face of course.. Kaoz.. I didn't put in any effort at work leh.. And I got so many back logs..

How come it's me again??? I don't think I deserve anything leh.. Cause I have not been performing at all loh...

But I know my HOD don't like me lah.. Haha.. Can tell from his face and his body language.. :p

Who cares??? They give me money, then I take loh.. wahaha...

And yar.. I came home early again today... Think people will start to backstab me soon in office.. Especially since I don't mix with them nor do I deserve that award.. Haha..

Last time I always work late, and they say why I don't want to go home etc etc... Then I go home early, they say I always go home early..

Got one best.. That time I always work late and then say,"See how long you can last".. He lucky I never shoot him back... But, I will always remember it.. I'm a petty man.. Haha.. Expect nothing less from a Virgo man... :p

And now, that person is promoted to a supervisor.. But I don't really bother.. I don't respect him anyway.. Haha.. Only know how to talk.. Know nothing much..

What disgust me most is this one plump lady who's interested in him and her seat is directly facing him.. She always feed his ego..

Cannot tahan.. Madness.. I wonder how much longer can I take this kind of working environment..

Kaoz... Means if I put in effort, I will be almost the king liaoz???

Enough of my rumblings.. Haha..

Just puzzled as to how things really work in the workplace.. Still can't get it.. Or is it just because I am too good for low-level jobs???

Should put me in a higher position mah.. Wahaha.. Or just let me be king... :p

Meaning of.. Stress

2008-01-16T21:31:00.000+08:00

After so many years, I have finally know the meaning of stress..

It is an unseen snake..

It wounds around and grips your heart till you have no strength over it..

It bares its fangs and pumps its poison into the body, cause it to lose every single bit of psychological will..

Yes.. I am stress.. Not at work.. But.. at an upcoming job interview..

Super stress.. Because it is my dream job.. And I find myself quite lacking.. Do I have enough time to go through all the textbook theories??

Do I have the time to do environmental scanning to get a more detailed idea???

Do I have the time to update myself with technological improvements???

Do I have the time to learn and use pivot tables????

Do I have the time to memorize all the formulas for financial analysis???

3 hours of interview... What will they do in three hours???

Write a report and present it???

Do I even have the capability and skill to do it???

Doubtful of myself now..

Or maybe it's just that I am feeling physically sick now.. haha..

Wishes for 2008...

2008-01-01T23:02:00.000+08:00

Haha.. Before I forget.. What I hope for in 2008..

1) Career

Hope to find a good job and stay for a while to develop my career ba... Haha..

2) Girlfriend

*Signz*.. Every year, it's the same wish but never get anything.. Haha.. Somehow, it seems like it has become a routine for me.. Or is it a curse???

3) Dream PC

Haha.. Yar.. My dream of an Ultimate PC yet again.. Maybe yes, maybe no.. See how the market goes.. Cause a lot of new stuffs coming out.. Getting a bit blur.. Haha..

4) Parents stop nagging at me to find gf, get married and give them a grandchild..

Gosh.. They should be satisfied for now that my 2nd elder bro has given them a grandson.. Hope they stop nagging at me.. I just cannot find a suitable match..

And given my character, if no suitable match and just anyhow choose, the relationship won't be long also and the gal will most probably end up crying for me again..

Then sianz.. Add to the list of gals crying and hating me.. Don't want lah.. I don't like to end up in the hated list one leh... Haha.. I am a kind man also.. :p

5) Masters (MBA) from either UK Uni or USA Uni

Hopefully I guess.. Get an MBA.. Cause my brother has achieved that while I haven't.. Haha..

Guess that's all for now.. Don't really have any pinnings for anything more.. Haha..

And I am still lazy to get a car license.. Haha..

Reminisce of 2007..

2007-12-31T18:43:00.000+08:00

2007... Hmmm... Guess quite a bit of changes for me...

1) Graduated from University of South Australia

Yap.. After one year of studying and relaxation, finally got my Bachelor Degree in Business Administration from UniSA..

A year of miracle.. Cause comparing my Uni results and past results, they are worlds apart.. Haha..

I was like normally the last few in class in terms of results. But for my Uni results, I was top of the class and was awarded the "Chancellor's Letters of Commendation" for being the top 5% of the performers in the faculty... Haha..

Business is where I thrive.. Wahaha...

2) Gotten a Coxswain Cert

Convertible to normal cert.. Means can have the license to drive sea crafts lah.. Haha..

But lazy to convert lah..

3) Got a job in an American insurance company

Well, it really totally blew my mind about foreign firms.. Didn't know that it was so bad... *Faintz*

And I thought the previous bank job was bad... Haha..

*Break*

Hmm.. Then I think nothing major happen to me this year liaoz..

What I wish for next year? Wait till a few more hours then i write ba.. Wahaha...

Misc...

2007-12-25T12:18:00.000+08:00

Christmas... Another holiday.. Which means a break from work.. Haha..

Sadly, no one to spend it with... *Haiz*.. The feeling of loneliness setting in again..

Well, stayed home over the weekend and these two days looking at my PC..

What I did:

1) Instailled a Aero skin (black) for my Firefox browser..

Looks more cool now.. Haha..

2) Watched Jay Chou's Secret..

Yar.. Watched it at home after so many months after its release.. Not a bad movie.. Should say it's more to fantasy love story.. Maybe it appeals to me because I am dreaming of having a relationship again??? Haha..

Anyway, I love the song inside.. “不能说的秘密”, by Jay Chou.. Very nice..

3) Watched some animes

Re-watching Blood+ cause I didn't finish it when it was first released.. Quite nice.. Dunno why I missed it a few years back..

Now, after reading the review on Fate/Stay Night, feel like watching it also..

4) Reviewed a fansub of "Macross Frontier", Episode One

Hmmm.. Newly released anime.. Graphics and Mecha-wise, looks great.. Think that it would be worth my time to continue on watching this anime..

I love Mechas and war animes anyway.. Haha... Oh yar, Gundam 00 is damn boring.. *yawnz*

5) Watched Beowulf

Not as fantastic as I thought it would be.. Lucky never go cinema and waste money to see.. Haha..

Well, that's just about what I did over these two days I guess..

Oh yar.. Windows XP Service Pack 3 works great... Starts up much faster also.. Up till now, after using for a few days, I am quite pleased with it..

By the way, XP SP3 is only in its beta stage I think.. So, maybe one will wanna wait till the full release next year ba..

Currently, the anti-virus I'm using is Grisoft AVG Free Version.. Haha.. Works great also I guess..

Spyware and pop-up wise, using Ad-Watch loh.. Not bad also lah..

Hmm.. Come to think about it, it may be because I'm not using Norton Anti-virus anymore and that's the reason why my lappy performance and speed has increased significantly.. Haha..

Oh well.. I think I am getting to be more and more of a “宅男”.. Haha...

Anyway,

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!~!

BEST WISHES FOR THE NEW YEAR TOO!~!

Today...

2007-12-23T22:37:00.000+08:00

Format my laptop again today.. haha..

1) Upgraded to XP service pack 3
2) Upgraded Office 2003 to service pack 3
3) Upgraded MSN Messenger to a newer version
4) Upgraded other softwares to keep up-to-date

Nothing else I guess.. Getting no life..

Dreaming of the ultimate computing machine..

1) Asus Motherboard (P5E3 Intel X38???)
2) Intel Quad Core Processor (X38???)
3) 2 GB of Corsair Dominator DDR III RAM
4) Seagate SATA Harddisk (Not sure how much space to get yet..)
5) Graphics Card (Asus GeForce 8800 GTS 512Mb???)
6) Coolant Master Casing
7) 22' LCD/Plasma Monitor

The above add up to at least $5,000 and above liaoz.. Faintz..

Ok.. The above configuration is not the ultimate yet.. No sound card or sound system.. I have a friend who uses a MAC machine utilizing Intel Xeon (x2) and Bose (I think) sound system for his gaming purposes.. *faintz*

At least to me, the above configuration is the ultimate machine for me.. Haha.. I am not a gamer some more.. So, basically, to a lot of others, I am wasting my money..

What to do??? No girlfriend to splurge on mah... Wahaha...

But.. I watch a lot of animes on my computer.. Want good graphics, not wrong right???

Don't think will get the ultimate machine unless the prices fall significantly... Haha..

Wait for Vista Service Pack 2 to be released first then decide.. Haha..

Lost Focus..

2007-12-09T11:43:00.000+08:00

Don't know what I've been thinking recently..

I think I've failed as a business analyst.. Haha..

With so many opportunities presented due to Technology, why am I still searching for product or service to sell???

Or rather, maybe I just gained enlightenment within these two days.. Haha..

Think it was because I was too focused on trying to leave the company and to find a job in the banking industry..

Am I really suited to the banking industry??? Or is it just out of my wilfulness??

Well, change of plans for me again.. (as always.. wahaha..)

I think I have sought out a route to take within the next two years. Don't know if I will be successful or not...

But I need to acquire new skills and knowledge in terms of technology I guess.. Cos I have a bright idea.. haha..

Think I might need to pay a visit to my relatives in China within the next few years.. Oh yar, and also Bill who is in Vietnam..

Must gather my focus once again.. Or maybe, I'll start next year... Who knows??? Haha..

Ah Hao wanna collaborate or not??? :p

Cause I hate accounting.. Wahaha...

Why I feel like Quiting

2007-11-25T15:33:00.000+08:00

1) System sucks

The system I use for processing sucks and full of bugs.. I think the MIS dept also sucks.. Can't believe a MNC with years of establishment is so lousy..

2) Supervisor sucks

She had opening commented in a very loud voice that I've been smoking again.. She is lucky I've grown to control my temper..

Given last time, I might have scolded her in front of all the colleagues..

3) Prospect sucks

Given that the system sucks which slowed down my processing for the first few months, I have a lot of bad lots, complaints and super low KPI...

This would definitely reflect badly on my future appraisal and affect my future career there..

Besides, this is the first time in my life I ever had bad lots and complaints.. Customers used to compliment me on my level of service and I have zero bad lots..

This has created a bad mark in my life.. This is a serious thing because I am a perfectionist with some level of pride..

4) Team work??? Ha!~!

They keep talking about team work and team building.. But there was none... Everyone do their own work..

5) Lack of leadership skills and other capabilities

The AMs simply cannot make it.. Cannot even control a group of temp staffs.. Can't even make them stay back to do a little more stuff...

To me, there's no leading function being practised at all..

Also can't make it at process re-engineering.. Tried this and that.. Do they know how much are they costing the company by "trying" and not "doing"???

6) Lack of communication

Supervisors keep everything to themselves.. No form of communication leading to speculations among the others..

To summarise point (5) and (6) in terms of management, there is simple no POLC being practised properly at all..

POLC = Planning, Leading, Organizing and Controlling

7) My approval and supervisor works according to mood

Imagine, my letter templates have been changed countless times.. The below is an example...

eg: "We refer to THE..." , "We refer to YOUR...", "We refer to your/the .. on the ... STATED ABOVE", "We refer to your/the ... on the ..."

Imagine the number of times my "template" have been changing from the above sentences.. I cannot understand why a simple sentence can change so much and it isn't even really legally binding!~! *Vomit bloodz*..

Kaoz.. In an operations job, don't tell me the above is flexibility lah..

8) From the above, one will know that there is no standards set or any SOPs

In operations work, no SOP and no guidelines = forever struggling.. Especially if your supervisor is a woman.. Sure diez beautifully... The amount of amendments I have to make everyday is around 70%.. On some days when my supervisor's mood is good or too busy, I clock less than 10% amendments.. Madness right??

9) Faults pushed to assessors

Anything that is not processed properly and when clients complain, assessors get it.. Madness.. Approvers for assessors should take the blame rather than the assessors mah.. Approvers check the work of the assessors leh.. Last time, I was something like an approver.. Anything work, I take responsibility to resolve the issues leh.. Kaoz.. WTF is happening in this organization??!~!??

Seriously.. I believe people are saying that I am a job hopper and one friend commented that I am always in situations where I can't find the ideal job environment..

But seriously speaking, I have already changed and downgraded my expectations by a a lot.. I was telling myself that even if the culture cannot make it, even if people cannot make it, system must be at least ok mah...

But... *Haiz*.. I believe this is the worst organization I've ever been to where everything really sucks...

Ding!~!

2007-11-11T12:09:00.000+08:00

Finally!~! After years of searching, I finally have a business idea..

Something to do with healthcare and also something that I am good in.. It's one of my hobbies anyway.. Something I have deep knowledge and experience in... Haha..

Plus, I have people who knows about healthcare... Business-wise, wouldn't be a problem..

Now, what I need to do is market research... And a partner.. I have someone in mind already.. Haha.. But it's a bit of risk cause he has a family to take care.. I cannot sabo him right???

Maybe approach my cousin who is based in China.. Market there is definitely bigger and my cousin has the dough.. And the city he's based in, is also quite a rich and developed city..Haha.. Vietnam market, I'm not very sure.. Need to see how.. Maybe I'll approach Bill or John.. Wahaha...

Need to research more as this is a new industry.. I need the knowledge first too.. Can't find much information on the web..

Give me another 1 year plus to experiment on some things first and for research purpose before I do anything...

Yar.. I am excited because it's something that I find very viable after many years of searching.. My business sense is tinkling.. Haha..

Time to start using my network of people liaoz... Wahaha...

And yap, I have formulated some basic business plan in my head for the short-term, middle-term and long-term..

Think will have some govt subsidy also..

Then hor.. To Jeff.. If my business plan does come to pass, I think our dream of a fish supermart would be within grasp in 10 years time..

Hmm.. 10 years later, we are not that old also right??? Wahaha...

My passion is burning again...

2 Weeks Later.. Egoism &...

2007-11-09T23:23:00.000+08:00

Well, took another General Insurance paper today.. PGI - Personal General Insurance..

Didn't study.. Only flipped through a little yesterday.. Hmmm.. Well.. I passed again.. Getting egoistic again.. Haha..

Anyway, just now had dinner with Terence.. Yap.. He's back in Singapore after being in Europe for the past two months on business trip... And yap.. We had the frog's porridge at Geylang again.. Wahaha..

Welcome back, Terence!~!

Sianz.. Working tomorrow again.. Somehow, I am losing momentum liaoz.. Kaoz.. Simply cannot make it liaoz.. Must push myself... 1 more paper to go before I get most of my insurance certificates.. Wahaha... Then most probably will move on???

Was watching Channel U's 10 pm show, "楚汉骄雄".. Something like that.. About Liu Bang and my favourite character, Xiang Yu.. How two kings fought over a kingdom after the Qin Dynasty fell...

Inside, there's one character, named Han Xin.. A brillant person who is well-versed in the Art of War and war strategies but without any real battle merits.. Therefore, he's not well utilized by the King of Chu..

After some years, he ran and joined the King of Han.. And initially, he suffered also, being offered only a lowly post..

Somehow, I feel like I can understand what he is going through.. Because it's similar to what I am going through.. Haha..

Initally, he was full of ego.. I am too.. But was under utilized.. Me too!~! Then became humble and stayed low profile.. Think I am like that now in my current company.. Haha..

Then, a brillant adviser chanced upon him and realized his potential.. Recommended him to Liu Bang, the King of Han..

*Sign*.. Hope someday, I'll be recognized by someone and be made commander of a thousand.. Haha.. It's akin to almost managing a whole MNC nowadays...

Time for me to hit the bed now.. Sianz sianz sianz.. Working tomorrow.. ARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH..

I am just a lowly claims executive...

Intelligence and Egoism...

2007-10-23T19:39:00.000+08:00

Haha.. This post is about being egoistic yet again.. :p

I just took and passed my BCP exam.. A General Insurance Certificate.. Think it's something like Basic Insurance and something something one.. haha..

Well, I passed it in one go.. Didn't study much either.. I only flipped through one-third of the textbook yesterday.. today, I took half-day to come home to study.. But hor.. I spent the time sleeping and only flipped the rest of the book in 30 mins time..

I think the most, I only spent less than 2 hours flipping though it.. And they said that it was the hardest paper as some failed at the first attempt.. Even my supervisor also said that it was real hard..

Kaoz.. To me, simple loh.. Nothing much.. Some are on contract and agency laws, which I scored Distinction in my Law module in Uni loh.. haha.. Then some on ethics.. Kaoz.. I also skipped reading that...

Others like insurable interest, reinsurers, basic calculation.. Simple lah.. Didn't even bring in a pen or calculator.. Just use my brain to calculate..

Haha.. I am using super broken English here.. Really shame on me as I am a degree holder and shouldn't talk like that..

But, who cares??? I am one with talent.. wahaha... But without any good educational certificates, without any good professional certificates (except Insurance certs), without good ECA background (nearly zero), my resume looks like a job-hopper, don't look good physically etc etc..

So how??? Companies' HRs won't even bother to call me up for interviews loh..

Think hor, the only chance I have in life now is to either:

1) Be a businessman
2) Follow the footsteps of Warren Buffett

For choice number one, I don't think I can be a businessman... I am more of a consultant, a strategist.. Haha..

Well, guess the last option for me would be a Warren Buffett wannabe.. No choice right??

And my love life is still currently empty... Suspecting that I might have to be a bachelor all my life liaoz.. Haha..

Then never mind lah.. Follow my old plan.. Work hard, get rich, then when I'm in my fourties, can donate part of the money to charity and go do social work in third world countries.. Haha..

Oh yar.. Not forgetting to leave part of my fortune for my retirement and my future nephews and nieces and god-children from friends... Wahaha...

I am dreaming again... *Faintz*..

Seeking and Searching..

2007-10-21T09:07:00.000+08:00

Well, it's been another busy week... Doing OTs.. Haha..

Last week, my friend introduced to me some big bosses from the building industry..

Stressed up.. Our conversation includes the 1997 Asian Crisis, the recent sub-prime, the USA political arena, the IR and the RHQs that are setting up here, which indirectly increases the market share etc etc...

Been quite a while since I've discussed all these things.. Haha... But quite enjoyed it as I learn quite a bit from them while they seek and discuss business opportunities over a cup of coffee..

Well, I believe that I managed to hold my composure then.. They were talking in millions of dollars of transaction.. Something which I am used to seeing on TV but not in real life..

Well, it just fired me up yet again, wanting to fight for something in life and maybe in the latter part of my life, I'll be able to partake in these type of business discussions... Haha..

Hmmm.. I am now currently seeking other job opportunities also... So, I am yet again, sending out my resumes to other big companies like KPMG, Morgan Stanley, Standard Chartered etc etc...

Just wish to stay in the finance industry for now... Unless I am able to find some business opportunities.. Haha.. Else, I'll stick to my plans for now..

Updates Again..

2007-10-14T11:14:00.000+08:00

I have no idea what topic to write on anymore.. Lazy to use my brain.. Haha..

Well, first of all, I would like to extend my congratulations to one of my friends who is 3 months pregnant.. I'll have a baby to play with next year!~! wahaha...

Well.. Been working OT everyday.. Also working on Saturday even though it's not needed.. That explains my disinterest in using my brain anymore.. Haha...

Well, the following clip's song is "My Valentine".. My HOD hp's ringtone.. When I heard this song, I fell in love with it.. Quite nice.. Haha..

The scenario in the clip is complied from Final Fantasy.. But I'm not the one who did it.. Haha.. Enjoy!~!

Older

2007-09-30T18:02:00.000+08:00

I realised that I am getting older when:

1) I am lacking in energy at work..

2) When most of your friends are attached and you have no one to spend your weekend with..

3) When friends don't really reply to sms or after a long time due to various commitments..

4) When a 19 year old told me to seriously find a soul-mate..

Haha.. I am not complaining about anything or what, just that I realised that the effects of loneliness is kicking in just by being older and anti-social...

Been doing OTs at work recently.. Too much workloads, bad lots etc etc.. I am expecting some scoldings to come real soon.. Haha..

And last night, a Uni friend, who is 19 years old, told me to seriously find a girlfriend now and get married in 3 years time.. *Gasped*..

Well, at least he offered to play at my wedding.. Haha..

My weekend is spent at home again.. My whole body is really calling out for a massage...

These few days, I've been complaining a lot.. Complain why Singaporeans are so weak and so many get hospitalized everyday and I have to assess and process so many claims.. Sianz..

Still got to take General Insurance exams in a month's time.. 3 papers, self-study.. Sianz..

Then after that, it's the RT club for me again.. Haha...

Then, office is going to move to the east side by either end of this year or early next year, away from the business district.. Sianz.. No more pretty girls to look at..

I seriously need a massage now.. Oh yar.. And a mate.. Haha..

Wasted Weekend..

2007-09-23T13:14:00.000+08:00

I had diarrhoea yesterday.. And now, I am still feeling weak with my stomach being emptied yesterday..

I think this is because I had too much Fisherman's Friend sweets for the past few days.. I forgot that it has always caused me to have diarrhoea every time I take too much.. Damn...

Well, nothing new in my life to talk about I guess.. Work-wise, still the same.. Being crappy at work loh..

Then I'm the super anti-social type.. Haha.. Been having lunch alone.. Well, I quite like being alone I guess..

My lunch routine is always like this: 30mins lunch, take Today newpaper, go back office, on PC, read newspaper and start working..

Well, it's quite nice that during lunch time, there's not much people in the office where I ca nread my papers in peace and enjoy the tranquility....

Haha.. Think I should try to socialise more right??? I have changed.. Dunno why nowadays, I like to enjoy moments of peace and being alone.. Haha..

Hmm.. I got a bad feeling that a colleague within the department has some feelings for me.. But too bad, I've got none for her.. Haha.. But then again, it's just a suspicion.. Or maybe I think too much again??? Haha..

Sianz.. Wasted weekend..

Work..

2007-09-15T18:22:00.000+08:00

Well, been at work for around 3 weeks now...

Culture and HR policies are good there... Currently, still ok..

Yesterday, went to Sentosa for a team-building event with a few departments..

There was like high, middle and low elements to conquer.. The high elements were obstacles many many metres away from the ground loh..

Something like those you see now TV, the wire walking.. At least I had a wire rope to hold onto also.. haha..

Well, I don't think anyone knows about this, but I have a height phobia.. After yesterday, I still have it.. Haha.. I don't know how I passed the obstacle though.. Maybe it's my over-whelming determination that overcame the fear..

Don't forget leh.. I am Sun Wu Kong reincarnate.. wahaha.. Just joking.. :p

Well, it was a rainy day yesterday, so naturally, I was all wet.. And I didn't bring any clothes to change.. Luckily didn't fall ill today..

Really tired today.. Expended too much energy again yesterday while at the team games.. All because I "Bankai" again.. Haha.. Or rather, I unconsciously took the lead again.. Shit man.. I'm always like that.. Cannot make it.. Hopefully the seniors are not offended at me leh.. If not, my career is gone again.. Haha..

Oh yar.. Had a sumptuous dinner yesterday at "No Signboard" restaurant at Vivocity yesterday, courtesy of the company.. Had lobster salad, sharksfin soup, crabs etc etc.. Maybe I was tired, which affected my tastebuds, but the crabs I had really cannot make it at all... The sauce taste was overwhelming the natural taste of the crabs and I think the crabs were over-cooked...

Hmm.. Well, I guess that for now, I'll stay at this job and see how first.. The HR policies and culture are pleasing to me at the moment..

Before I forget, gotta thank a Uni friend who taught me to encourage others.. I used to be very lacking in that.. But I guess to be a good future leader, I'll also need to learn to motivate the new generation who possesses different mindsets..

Boring Work...

2007-09-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

Started working for 3 days already...

Well, I'm now doing claims with a insurance company..

First three days was spent on learning the system.. The dreaded AS400 popping up again.. Lousy system.. Really.. But.. It's still used by many companies anyway...

Well, I really think I made a wrong choice here.. Why in the world did I choose a backend operations job??? It's so boring!~!

And yap.. I am looking around for a job again.. This time, focusing on marketing or analyst.. But I'll stay on first till I've found a new job..

Maybe.. I'll go back to sales.. Just maybe.. Haha..

Oh well, colleagues are nice.. Culture's not bad in there.. Seemingly looks good to me in the first few days.. But.. I think that they have a lot for improvements in their processes..

How in the world can they keep on doing OTs and work on some Saturdays also??? Must have some problem somewhere.. I'll see what I can do once I start on the actual work in the next few days.. Haha.. Operational efficiency... Don't think it's that hard for me.. Wahaha..

Oh yar, I was attached to a colleague for the first few days and she was teaching me on the processes.. She is like those blur-cute, dunno anything type of girl.. And she's not pretty.. Sianz.. No motivation at work also liaoz.. Wahaha..

Well, I did learn some things from here... And I lost confidence in claims.. Haha.. Or rather, all along, being a perfectionist, I don't really have much faith in this world... Haha..

Well, if you want to compare, here is worse than DBS.. Really.. Initially, I thought that a foreign MNC with many many years of history won't be that bad..

But... Office ergonomics sucks... Computers are like so outdated.. Everything sucks and the saving grace is the nice culture there...

Well, depending on how, I might be doing my Masters next year with APMI again.. The Southern Illinois University, Carbondale.. One of the top Universities offering MBA.. Haha.. Or maybe an MBA from the University of South Australia...

An MBA from USA.. Then maybe banks will accept me.. Hahaha...

Work again tomorrow.. Sianz..

Hired!~!

2007-08-22T15:34:00.000+08:00

Finally found a job.. Haha..

With an insurance company as management intern...

Though it's not exactly what I am looking for, but I guess that this is a good position to be in..

Think that with experience in this field, I'll grow in value within a couple of years if I work hard enough.. Haha..

Well.. Onto the next phrase of life..

Oh yar.. Just after the interview, I went to buy the Samsung U700.. Wahaha.. The only things that are better than my last N73 are that (1) It doesn't hang (2) It looks stylish.. Haha..

Starting work next Wednesday.. A day just after my birthday.. Quite a coincidence.. Haha..

Anime War in SG..

2007-08-17T13:22:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Seems like the action taken by the company, Odex, to persecute anime downloaders is creating a very big hoo-ha among the anime lovers here..

Seems like they underestimated the passion the anime lovers possess... Well.. Let's see.. If I am in the shoes of the directors, what other actions can I take other than this legal action???

Change of business plan and structure.. Haha..

By making use of technology of course.. Let's explore some determining factors on why anime lovers here are downloading animes illegally instead of buying them from stores..

1) They are free of charge

2) They get the newest episodes rather than buying the DVDs..

I have looked around in video stores and to tell the truth, many are not up to date.. Most are like 30 to 50 episodes lagging behind.. It's a bit frustrated for anime lovers I guess when they read the latest updates on the animes and yet are so far lagging behind and the passion over-rides sanity to download them over the web..

3) Limited amount of animes offered here..

A lot of animes from Japan never reach the shores here in Singapore.. Only limited and selected ones are, like Bleach and Naruto.. TV always repeats the same animes.. I don't know how many times have I watched Shaman King on TV already... Some old Gundam shows like Gundam Z are not sold here.. Or rather, never seen on sale.. I have to borrow from friends who bought through japanese DVD websites to watch..

4) Ease of downloading Animes

Simply said, technology and the internet has made it easy to download animes without going out to shops to search with the chance of not finding the animes, which might be a waste of time..

Business Strategy

To consider the threat of piracy of fan-subs, why not think of it in a positive way? I mean, using legal means is the last resort that I might want to use.. Especially considering that the anime-lovers here might be young also where they are still schooling..

What's the point in persecuting them when they have no money on their own and the parents pay for them? They don't feel the pinch.

Besides, it might create a backlash for the companies also. Judging from how rich the kids are nowadays and people here in Singapore is getting more influential, anime-lovers might not even buy any animes from the stores here and would rather go online to get the latest anime DVDs straight from Japanese webstores.. Most will have credit cards to pay..

Worse still.. They can form a group, get one copy of anime DVDs, burn and distribute them among members, which is harder for the Odex to locate the mastermind and persecute them, and they end up paying more for the legal fees, employing of detective etc etc..

To me, Odex move is an unwise movement.. They didn't take account into several factors and the most important, being the social-cultural factor.. If according to business, they are not wrong in doing that.. But, they failed to see the effects and the risks involve.. Culture is always evolving and society changes and improves over time.. Strategies have to change too..

What's my business plan then?? It's a modification from Dell's business model..

1) Set up servers to cater to online downloads... Have them pay a low monthly or yearly subscription to download translated animes.. Or maybe a pay-per-episode of a few cents..

In this aspect, Odex can work out contractual deals with the different anime companies to distribute the animes exclusively to the Singaporeans and to increase significantly the amount of animes it carries...

I believe there are many fan-subbers out there and Odex can acquire them or work with them to do the translations..

Fan-subbing is a big business too and this provides another revenue income for Odex..

2) Set up E-stores for those who want to collect anime boxes..

Here, Odex can reduce inventory significantly and will order from the suppliers upon the receiving of orders.. This would aid a lot in reducing the costs of rental, especially in Singapore where land is super expensive...

The above are two suggestions from me... Which I believe will be a better way... Music companies are also offering to sell their music online for only a few cents per song.. So.. Why not animes? iPods can also play animes right???

Implications involve in the plan..

The change of business plan and structure will affect a lot of the employees in Odex.. In this aspect, to be more humane, the directors can use their influence and network to help redundant employees find new jobs in other places.. Some can be re-trained to fit in newly developed departments...

But I guess one of the major factor would be the cost.. Well, I am not an analyst or a finance person.. It's not up to me to calculate the set-up and running costs.. Haha..

Anyway, the above is just my personal comments lah... And I wonder who will read this post anyway.. Haha..

Endless Searching...

2007-08-15T19:17:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... Damn... None of the analyst jobs that I've applied to responded to me.. And all the recruitment agencies that I've sent my resume to based on the openings found in JobsDB.com did not reply to me at all..

Sianz... Seems like it's tough competition from the local fresh graduates in which I am being over-powered just by the University difference..

Feeling a little frustrated, but I am still confident of my capabilities.. I still believe that in whatever company I am in, I will be able to contribute..

Well, for now, it's still searching around.. Haha..

And.. The dreaded IPPT is coming up.. Damn.. Last night, I timed my self and spent 14 minutes to finish my 2.4km run... How in the world am I going to pass??? Guess it's RT again... *Faintz*

Wooo.. Yar.. My brother's child is going to be a male.. He asked my dad to name his child last night...

Had a small joke on the naming.. My brother suggested a single name of "Bei" (North in Mandarin) and I laughed.. My parents were slow in response and had question marks all over their heads..

Out surname is Lim.. So, meaning, my nephew name will be Lim Bei.. Translated from Hokkien, it means "I'm your father".. Something like that.. Haha..

Ok... Going to be an uncle soon.. Gotta settle down in some job soon and be a good example.. Except for smoking and drinking.. Wahaha...

Tomorrow's the interview with UOB for the post of Senior Officer in a branch.. Gotta read up on the compliance things and the operations and the bank itself.. Sianz.. So much work..

When will I get an Analyst job???????

To Employers,

I am a all-rounder in the field of business with working experiences in different roles before in part-time jobs. I have done engineering jobs, administrative jobs, data-entries , sales jobs, systems registration job and dealt with MRP before...

During my work, I interact and learn from managers and learnt the skills and knowledge necessary for a leadership role..

I learnt the foundations of being a business analyst during my degree course, of which, I am the top student in class and the top 5% performers in my faculty..

Armed with all-round business knowledge, good working attitude with an engineering and business background, I am confident of delivering results for the organization... Hire me for who I will become, not just what I am now...

Any offers, please email to michaellim80@hotmail.com..

Haha.. I don't think I'll get any offers here...

Pissed Off

2007-08-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

These few days, someone pissed me off totally...

On Friday night, I received a call from a friend asking me if I want to tutor two primary school kids.. I thought for a while and said SHOULD'T be a problem, but ask how much the person is willing to pay and where he's staying FIRST..

Then, after a few minutes, she called back and I decided to reject the offer.. And don't know why she got mad and started to scold me saying I am not matured in handling things etc etc..

I didn't want to quarrel and waited for her to finish off before hanging up the phone after saying my goodbye..

I was a bit pissed off already.. To me, it's a simple affair.. Why did she say I was giving her trouble in terms of finding a reason to explain to his friend why I reject...

In the first place, I didn't agree to anything.. I just asked her to find out more.. Secondly, since I have not agreed to anything, I have the right to reject..

Kaoz.. Scold me??? My parents and elder brothers do not dare to scold me anymore and she scolded me for being immatured in handling things???

Judging from her character, she must have assumed that I agreed and she told the person I agreed to the terms and conditions..

Really.. I cannot tahan this character flaw of her.. She only listens to what she wants to hear and assumes too much things.. This is not the first time already...

Then, just now, she was on MSN and messaged me to ask me how I was.. I said I was not happy because she scolded me..

Then I explained my point to her.. But she just went didn't reply and after a while, went offline and never came on again..

WTF!~! This gal is basically super rude... Totally pissed off at her now...

And two friends of mine asked me to make her mine and marry her.. Please spare me!~! Edward knows me best when the first time he met her, he knows that she does not suit me..

The above situation is already one example how she can totally pissed me off at her immaturity.. Imagine.. A 28 year old woman with the mind of a 16 year old.. Who can tahan? If I didn't know her better, I would have thought that she might be autistic...

She always assumes things and alway never listens to my advice, so why bother? Due this characteristic of her, I have on quite a few occasions went into arguments with her.. Already told her of this character-flaw...

I mean.. We are supposed to be tactful right? So I always make a point to select my words carefully.. But, she is one who never listens..

Another point is that, whenever I talk, she'll interupt with something totally irrelevant.. I am not one who likes to be interupted.. So.. Another minus point..

Lastly but not least, friends who know her knows that she is too-open.. Going beyond even what the Westerners can accept.. It's something that exceeds my moral limits and open-mindedness... Haha...

So.. All these majors points are real detering factors for me... I did not include age as I have no problems with that.. More concern with maturity and morality.. Haha..

Ok.. Feel much better after venting my anger on the keyboard in here.. Haha..

Still trying to find a job.. Sianz..

In Search Of....

2007-08-05T10:41:00.000+08:00

Still searching for a new job...

Have an average of 2 interviews per week.. Got a job offer, but rejected it.. Haha..

The job offer was for HR Executive.. But the compensation package sucks big time..

Initially, I was willing to just work for just $1,800 per month.. After after looking at the contract, I nearly fainted...

It was like giving me only 15 days of annual paid leave.. Then I need to submit 2 months in advance for resignation...

The thing really looks like a pay package for diploma holders rather than a degree holder.. Besides, the 2 months thingy is going to lock me in..

With the experience of the HR manager (well, he talked for hours), I thought that he should know better.. Or maybe he just wants to those fresh graduates who doesn't know the market and doesn't know how to think for themselves..

Kaoz.. I have been working for years and I think that package is the lousiest... Besides, I have some knowledge that that industry is almost a sunset industry in Singapore liaoz.. Because it is in the manufacturing industry, it's bound to move out to cheaper countries within the next few days... If it doesn't, it will lose its competitive edge in terms of cost and pricing over the short to middle term...

After rejecting, I went back home for a nap.. Then I checked the JobsDB website for new openings.. I saw a familiar advertisement..

Same company, same email, same post.. Offering $2,200 for the same position.. I was really cursing and swearing... Kaoz.. I guess on the external, I look like an idiot to people... Freak..

Well, I am moving on... Got interviews next week with a local bank and a marketing position with a Taiwanese-based computer and electronics giant.. Haha..

Initially, I was so blur.. The PC company emailed me asking me to go for an interview on the Aug, 9... Getting excited, I just immediately responded, agreeing to the time and date given..

I told my parents about the interview on the 9th Aug.. Then... After a few hours, my dad asked me.. "9th Aug is national day leh.. Public holiday leh.. Got interview meh???"

I was like.. -__-"

I immediately sent another email asking them about it and requesting a change of dates.. Haha.. Still waiting for replies...

But the two openings for next week is something that I think I really want.. To be an assistant branch manager or to be a marketer.. Haha..

Think I'm more interested in being a marketer for the PC market.. Cause I have a lot of interest in the PC market mah.. Then hor.. Dunno leh.. But I like the idea of being a marketer.. Maybe because in events, can employ chio models and then... Muahaha.. Ok.. It's crap.. I just have a genuine interest in marketing, expecially in the area of computers...

Well, I am really rotting at home now.. Going through newpapers, job websites and company websites in search of a job...

Don't know when will I stop rotting.. Haha... Can't stand being home and doing nothing..

End of...

2007-07-27T20:22:00.000+08:00

Today marks the end of my In-Camp-Training...

I am now a certified Recon 3 Coxswain... I can command a small vessel now with seamen under me.. wahaha..

I wonder how I survived it... Damn.. I am really developing a phobia of sailing into the sea..

Well, that's the end for this year I guess...

Now.. For update on my 2nd interview..

It went smoothly.. I was interviewed by two foreigner ladies.. Don't know why, but I feel very comfortable with them in comparison to local interviewers.. I guess they were professional and able to conduct interviews very well...

Well, the second interview was more on behavioural assessment.. Like how I handle and deal with different situations by relating a real life working, studying or sporting story..

Then was an assessment on customer service and they also require real life story.. In this aspect, I ended with, "Well, I think that some customers raise their voices or complains over the phone just to vent their frustration.. I will just listen and ultimately, what customers want is someone who can solve their problems and they will be happy at the end.. " I think I said something like that.. Hahaha..

Oh yar.. The other questions asked were on my strengths, weaknesses and character.. And one question was on whether I've met with unethical issues at work and how did I handle them..

Well, thanks to the interviewers who made me comfortable, I was able to answer the questions with confidence... And besides, I am trained to tell good stories.. Wahaha...

I think I did quite well in these two rounds of interview.. I still wonder where I got the self-confidence from.. Haha..

Well, around 30 minutes after the interview ended and I was on my way home, they called me up again to arrange for a final interview on Monday with the Head of the Department..

Hmm... Wish me good luck people.. If everything goes smoothly, I will be able to start work on either this coming Wednesday or the week after next...

2nd Job Interview

2007-07-23T18:10:00.000+08:00

Was just called up for a 2nd interview tomorrow at 5 pm... Gosh.. It's a good thing that they make time for me.. Haha..

Well, the company is known as SetClear... It is supposed to be a new thing where backend financial operations can be outsourced to this company and Singapore is where the head office is located...

Hopefully I can perform tomorrow and get the job.. Haha..

Then I'll be working on shift hours during the weekdays and also on some holidays as this is a global business, not local only...

Pray hard for me people... I hope to get a pay of more than $3,000... Haha...

Reservist and Job Searching...

2007-07-14T13:41:00.000+08:00

Well, it's been two weeks since I started on my reservist... I am currently on Coxswain course for RPL (Ramp Powered Lighter).. The small ship that carries troops and vehicles across waters...

Well, did get a bit of hands-on... But there's a lot of free time too.. Fell sick yesterday with a slight fever and cough.. I am not one who can stand being slack.. I'll definitely get sick.. Haha..

Two more weeks to go... Sianzzzzz... Next week, it's sailing for 4 days till 8pm everyday.. I really, really, really hate sailing.. Don't know why they put me in the Navy and in the Coswain course.. I guess Heaven is toying with me...

Two more weeks to end of reservist and I am still jobless.. Hopefully this status will not be for long..

This morning, I read in the Recruitment section of the Straits Times and found a opening as a Reconciliations Analyst with SetClear, a new investment banking subsidary of Optimal Australia...

The post requires me to work shifts... But I guess since my resume sucks, I need this job where I have higher opportunity as most Singaporeans would not like to work shifts.. Haha.. Just get ta few years of experience first before jumping..

My Ideal institute is actually either Barclays or Credit Suisse.. Applied already and waiting for response..

Well, back to SetClear.. So I sent in my resume and within 1 hour, they called me up for a brief telephone interview and arranging an assessment for me coming Sat, on the 21st of Jul.. If I am selected, I'll start work on the 1st of August..

Haha.. So now, I need to recover from my sickness first, do facials and face-masks for my pimpled face (due to the endless sailing and the sun during the reservist..)

I guess they gave me a chance because it is an Australian institute and my degree is from University of South Australia with a very high GPA of 6.000 out of 7.000... Haha...

Pray hard for me guys and gals.. Haha...

Raised Status..

2007-07-08T20:48:00.000+08:00

I received news from my parents just now that I am going to be promoted...

Promoted to be an uncle because my 2nd elder bro's wife is pregnant.. Wahaha..

Time for me to plot some revenge... I suffered under the hands of my bro for years.. muahahaha...

And now, my parents asking me when's my turn... -__-"

I immediately escaped from the scene... kekeke....

I am going to be an Uncle!~!~! Wahahaha....

(P.S: I love kids a lot...)

Updates

2007-07-07T14:47:00.000+08:00

Well, as of now, I have completed my BA degree with the University of South Australia..

Results: 1 High Distinction, 8 Distinctions and 1 C... GPA: 6.000

Having my one month reservist now in the navy...

My skin dropping off now because I was out sailing and didn't cover myself properly.. Think that I will be much darker after my reservist.. Haha..

Looking for a job in the banking and financial sector, preferably foreign banks..

That's all for now...

Sophisticated Simplicity

武曲七杀~

Of Nothing-ness...

Found-ed

Frustrations of Job Search (Perceptions)

End of...

No Specific Topic

Updates...

Finally... After being chased...

New Toy

Changes

Monday - The Colour of Royalty

Monday Sianzelogy...

Can't Get Her out of my Head...

Saturday Randomization

The Delicate Relationships... Mixed Emotions and Confusion

Weekend Fun..

Breaking Away..

Looking Back.. Testimonials..

Of Food & Alcohol..

Sat Night Fever...

Mid Week... And Changes

Over the Weekends

Conflicts and Understandings..

Of.... Babies...

Realization and Enlightenment..

Weekends!~!

Macross Love Songs...

Good & Bad Day...

Past and Future..

Inpromptu..

What Really Affects...

Definitions and Knighthood...

The Greatest Fool...

Sat Nite Chill Out

Boss or Balls???

Fear is...

Random-nization 02

Random-nization..

Rattlings..

Older..

Habitual Creatures Or???

Incessant Nagging & Bloodline...

Born on the 19th of April

Messed Up

What Really Matters...

Feeling... Irritated...

Random Rants..

Much Ado About Nothing - Heroes & Love...

Meeting and Catching Up

Weekends, Monday and Thoughts..

Updates Over the Past Few Weeks

New Beginnings...

New Toy

The End..

Ending...

Unexpectedly, But Good Start to the New Year

All over Again.. Vicious Cycle...

Disappointment and Sadness..

Is It Just Me Or????

Meaning of.. Stress

Wishes for 2008...

Reminisce of 2007..

Misc...

Today...

Lost Focus..

Why I feel like Quiting

*Ding*!~!

2 Weeks Later.. Egoism &...

Intelligence and Egoism...

Seeking and Searching..

Updates Again..

Older

Wasted Weekend..

Work..

Boring Work...

Hired!~!

Anime War in SG..

Endless Searching...

Pissed Off

Ding!~!